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The Vintage Honey Shop: Headband Giveaway

2012-01-12T20:59:00.000-05:00

The Vintage Honey Shop: ***Headband Giveaway***: To get you all excited about our new headbands....we are going to give one away!!! We are so excited about celebrating our 1 year anniversa...

Happy 2011

2011-01-21T13:13:00.000-05:00

Wow, it has been such a long time since I have been on here!!!! Life has been very busy and full of tons of fabulous changes! To start with, I moved back to Wellington in October after a year of living in my hometown for a break from my divorice from Jason. Which, even before returning to Wellington, Jason and I reconnected and agreed that we couldn't be apart. He moved in with us to our new home. Our relationship is better than even before we married! Life has never been so good! I am truely blessed to have my family back together and doing so much better than I expected!

Jason and I were baptized in April. It was the most incredible moment in our lives. Then in September at another water baptizim, Chloe, our 7 year old, stood up and told the Pastor that she would like to be baptized!!!! We are so proud of her! So, since it wasn't planned, she went in the clothes she was wearing!

Christmas was wonderful! We spent it with both of our families and everyone got along so I was extremely happy!!! The girls got every thing they asked for and more than they planned on!

Last week I bought the Canon Rebel T2i camera! I am soooo in love with it already even though there is so much I need to learn about it! So I am attending a few local classes so I can get the most out of it!

Here we are at "family day" with Jason's company Norfolk Southern. Family day is such a fun time! All of the activities are catered to the children. With clowns blowing balloon animals, mini trains for rides, all sorts of games, all of the ice cream and candy you can ask for and so much more it is such a good time!

I will try to get on here more than I have been! Things have just been so busy! I hope everyone is doing well and that 2011 is off to a great start for all of my lovely readers!!!

catch up in pictures

2010-04-06T01:59:00.000-04:00

These are random pictures taken between January and yesterday.

thats how you eat pudding!

my little diva!

Chloe and her best, Kaylin

My "princess bride"!!! <3

She is *so* excited for her zhu zhu pets and sets

The girls big Easter gift

Wow, how things change!!!

2010-04-05T12:22:00.000-04:00

It has been such a long time since I have wrote on here and so many things have changed, for the best of course!

I'll start back from November and work our way forward to catch everyone up! We did separate in November. I moved back to my home town to excape the drama that Wellington offered. I kept Chloe in school out there, so everyday I drive her back and forth. No biggie, it kept things pretty normal for her. Shortly after separating, Jason and I agree to take our time and see how things play out. Our anniversary is New Years Eve and we actually went to dinner together. It was nice, being able to laugh and get along!

February 2, we went to divorce court and the divorce was finalized. Around that time, Jason and the girls started going to church with a couple we are good friends with. Then, one day our Pastor was talking about disciples and Jason asked if I would like to attend a service. I went and just loved it! I grew up Luthern, and this church is Pentecostal and its so incredible! I love the band that plays, I love the energy, happiness and the good feeling I have when I leave. I have been attending church since the end of February. It really has been such a good thing for Jason and I.

Jason takes the girls when ever he is home from work and we are still just taking our time. In a weird way, divorce was great for us. We are such stubborn, proud people that we couldn't communicate correctly. It was always a fight to see who could hurt the other the worst with words. Now, we can actually talk thru our issues without insults! I am so much happier right now.

I have been trying like crazy to find a job. Wow, that is so hard to do!!! Hardly any business' in my area are hiring for what I am qualified for. But, I am out there every day putting out as many resumes as I can! I know something will come eventually, ut it would be fabulous to have a job now before my extra spousal support runs out!!! lol

I know there probably is so much I am leaving out, but for the life of me, I really can't recall it right now! We had a fabulous Easter breakfast and service at church yesterday then I had the girls with me at my sister's Easter get together. It was such a gorgeous day!!!

I just wanted to let everyone know that I really appriciate all the very sweet thoughts and concerns for me and the girls, from my last post. Things are definitally looking up for me! I'll be back soon with pictures of the girls and more updates!

Acro, Divorce, Etsy, and Halloween

2009-10-20T01:07:00.000-04:00

Chloe's self portrait!

I have no idea what is going on with my blog, when I upload pics now, insted of just showing my pictures, I get all of this html stuff.... So I have no idea what is what... same thing when I try to link to someone or something... Help!!!???

Anywho, Chloe had her parents visitors night at acro tonight. It was so great to watch her doing something she truely loves! She had such a blast getting to show me everything she is learning!!! You can see her doing backbends and the start of a headstand in the pictures!!! On November 5th, I get to see Kylies acro class! I am very excited for that because she will only show me her tumbles and her favorite move: the crab! Ha!

Yesterday, while I was sewing stuff for my Etsy shop Chloe took a few scraps of muslin and made a wedding dress and veil for her dragon webkinz then proceded to have a wedding. She had the dragon marry the turtle, the cat was the flower girl! Ha! I loved it! I love what an imagination she has! She is very creative!

For Halloween, Chloe decided to be a witch. I found the most awesome witch costume at Rite Aid (of all places) the other week! Its purple and black and the skirt lights up! I can not wait to have her wear it and get a ton of pictures!!!! Kylie decided to go as Tinkerbell. We couldn't find one that fit her (she is so tiny) but my mom found the "garden fairy" costume and Ky just loved it!! When she seen it, she yelled "Tinkerbell!". I can't wait for Halloween to see my sweeties dressed up and having such fun!

The divorce part? Well, that is still going on. We were supposed to meet with his lawyer last Thursday, but he got called to work. So, if you have read my blog for a while, you know that last year we filled bankruptcy due to his cut in pay while in engineer school a few years back... anywho, we did put the house in due to SO much needing to be done and us lacking the time and / or money. So, today there was a knock at the door and it was the Sheriff. (My heart dropped. When we were told about the sheriff's sale a few months back, we were told it would probably be around January). Wrong. The sheriff said we have until November 18th to vacate. Now I am freaking out like there is no other. I still don't have a job. I don't have an appartment lined up (that was my 2nd to do after finding a job), and I'm getting divorced. I know that God won't give me more than I can handle, but wow. I am seriously scared. I know I will be ok in the end and that Jason won't let the girls go without what they need, but this is WAY too much for me to handle. I do have a wonderful family and support system to get me thru this and help as much as possible, but right now it just doesn't seem enough. I will let you guys know how all this plays out...

In the mean time, I have been busy making a ton of stuff for my Etsy shop. Please check it out and tell your friends. Right now more than ever I need to get my name out there. In case the link doesn't work when you click on it, my shop is www.primitiveaccents.etsy.com . Right now, until the end of October, I am offering a buy one, get one 1/2 off sale.

My baby is kind of famous!!!!

2009-10-15T22:17:00.003-04:00

See that picture??

Last year when my inlaws and I got along famously, they took the girls to get their Christmas pictures done at our local Sears....

A few days ago, my mother in law recieved a phone call from Sears about that picture.

The lady said out of all the pictures they took last Christmas, THAT picture was still on their minds and Sears would like to use it for their Christmas displays inside Sears and the mall with our permission!

Of course I jumped up and down and told Jason to say yes!! I am going to call Sears myself and see if I might be able to even get free pictures this year for them using her picture!!! I am so proud of my sweetie pie!!!

**Don't forget to check out my Etsy shop !!! I am offering a Grand Opening sale of buy one item, get a second item 1/2 off. Plus I am adding more stuff this week so keep checking back and Halloween items will go on sale on Monday to make room for my Christmas items**

And a super big thank you to Stephanie who made my Etsy banner! I truely love it! It is so perfect! Not only is Stephanie super talented, she is really one of the nicest people you could EVER meet!!!! Check out her blog and some of the work she does then leave her some love!!!

Hi, Remember me?

2009-10-10T01:00:00.004-04:00

Hello Blog World,

Do you remember me? Oh, forgot about me? My name is Sara. I am a "stay at home mom". I sometimes pop in on my blog "All Things Girlie". I have 2 wonderful daughters....

Memory refreshed??

Sorry its been over a month since I last posted! There is so much to fill you guys in on! I will start with the good news: I opened my Etsy shop today! Come visit me at www.primitiveaccents.etsy.com . (Hum, the link button is making a long address come up insted of leaving the link how I want...) Anywho, I am really excited about my shop being open finally. For almost as long as I have had my blog I have talked about "eventually" opening up a shop. That time has finally come! I make penny rug candle mats, grungy reed diffusers, misc. holiday decor, shelf sitters, plus much more! I truely hope that I will be blessed with the shop in the way that God intends.

Chloe is a rockstar in school! She loves first grade and all that comes with it! It amazes me so greatly how well she can read, but even more so is her natural ability with math! I have never taken too highly to math, but she just LOOKS at some numbers and can tell me the sum of it! So far, she has brought home 100%s on her end of the week tests!!! I am so proud of her! She loves acro! That was the best thing for her! And her first Daisy Girl Scouts meeting was the other day. That brought back so many memories of me when I was little....

Kylie loves acro as well! She is the youngest in her class and does so well! This upcoming week, the parents are allowed to sit in the class and watch! I am super excited for that to see what all she is learning! Every day she is growing up more and more. It makes me so proud of her and yet so sad. She will turn 3 in December and she is no longer a baby. I know she hasn't been for awhile, but its kind of hard for me to realize that my baby isn't a baby. She has such a terrific personality and just like Chloe has an amazing talent for make believe and game playing!

The biggest news of all is that after many years of going back and forth, Jason and I are finally officially divorcing. I am taking it well, for the moment. There are times when I am doing something I will start to cry. I will miss him so much for the man I knew, for how good he was to me when he was good to me..... Its so conflicting. Almost our whole marriage was a roller coaster ride. He was always drinking which fueled so much. I stood by him in his darkest hour. I have always supported him in his choices. I am staying as positive as I can during this though. I am planning on going back to school once this is finalized. I have the girls to keep me busy along with my Etsy shop. I am currently looking for a job. Right now nothing has changed between us, actually something has, we have learned to communicate. We (for the first time in years) actually sit around and talk and laugh with each other. That kind of makes it hard to accept this is a reality, but I know in my heart it is. Words truely can not describe how much I love him. I know it is so corney, but the day I met him I was in love. And its not like our meeting was a super fabulous kind of thing... just met at the fair thru a mutual friend in passing, said a few words to each other and the next day our friend called and asked if she could give him my number. The very next weekend, we were a couple. I felt so strongly about him in that brief encounter and 6 *short* years, I am still head over heels in love with him.

I know deep down that he does love me.... yet I am not going to put the fight in for this not to happen this time. He will realize what a mistake he made in a short while and that hurts me. Jason wasn't raised by the best of parents. They were drunk 24/7, his mother beat him with every inch of his life out of amuzement, they lied about major life changing issues..... and in turn as he grew older, he drank to cope with his life until April. I hate that he had to endure so much in his life and that he didn't grow up finding other ways to deal with issues. Those are things I can not change... I will always love him. Not just for being the father of my children, but for being him. We are actually meeting with the lawyer tomorrow to go over the papers that he filed a month ago. After that, I will go to my lawyer to review them. And then the process will begin.

In all honesty, that is why I havent posted in such a long time. Before he told me he filed, it was so tense here. Nothing but fighting between the two of us. And every time I actually would try to write something, I would just want to write of what was going on between us and I didn't want that. I don't want my blog to be a sad blog.

Would you please say a prayer that I find a good job to support me and the girls? Pray that Jason doesn't return to drinking when he moves out when the divorce is done? Pray that I find peace in this? And lastly pray that my girls take this divorce well? We haven't told them yet and I am truely dreading that. Even though he will have them when he is home from work, it still bothers me that it will be separate homes. Separate parties and so on....

I have to catch up on my emails and such, but please check out my blog and tell your friends!!!! Have a great week!!!

Recycle Bank Program

2009-09-07T00:08:00.002-04:00

My town has just started this program and I think it is fabulous for people who may have wanted to recycle, but was maybe intimidated or what not... Its so easy. We have always recycled in my home, but this program makes it fun. Chloe is very much involved in making sure that anything that can be recycled is. All we have to do is take our recycle bin to the curb along with our trash bin and within a few days, "X" amount of points are posted to your account according to your account number from the bin.

I think this could be very promising. Because, lets face it, its good to recycle but some might feel the need to see what they get in return. With the program, you get discounts! Yea! =)

**Disclaimer, I am sorry if it seems I am just rambling on at this point, I am so tired! But I wanted to put this out there**

better late than never, right?

2009-09-06T22:31:00.004-04:00

I am really going to try and post at least once a week! I feel terrible that I have neglected my blog. I have just been so busy getting my Etsy shop prepared, taking the girls to their acro classes, settling back into a routine *which is wonderful by the way*, and just busy with life.

Anywho, I finally uploaded a few pictures of recently to share with all my blog world friends! At the county fair, they had a NASA exhibit. It was super cool. You got your picture taken and they photoshoped it to make it look like you were on the moon. All 4 of us did it, but I have to get my scanner fixed before I can share those! Ha. But I did take these of the girls. *Doesn't Kylie look just thrilled to do this?!* If you look closely, you can see Jason holding her up!

Looking at Chloe's picture just cracks me up! I don't know if it is the angle or how she is smiling, it just looks so different to me!

Chloe is finally learning how to skate!!! She bought these for her birthday back in June. Tried them once while we were vacationing in Virginia Beach. After that, she could care less. Chloe gets very nervous to try new things, expecially if there is a chance that she could get hurt. Goodness, she still won't let us take the training wheels off her bike! It really frustrates me, but I know she will do it when she is ready! So, after her and I had a few days to our selves, I asked if she wanted to give her skates a try. And to my surprise, she said yes! She is doing pretty well, sometimes still holding my hand, but thats a start! =)

My little Kylie bug is doing a "ballet pose" before she heads off to her first acro class! I am so happy for this little pumpkin! Last year, I felt so bad for her because after we would drop Chloe off at ballet, she would ask about her class... So this year, I enrolled her in acro **she ended up loving it!** She is the youngest in her class at 2 1/2. The typical age is 3 -4. There are 9 kiddos in her class and one is a boy! I hope they all stick it out because they are the cutest things to watch at recital time!

Cant tell she is excited to go to her first acro class can you??!!

My sweet Chloe! Ugh. I am so happy and sad at the same time when I look at this picture! This was taken the morning of her first day of first grade! I know I have been saying it for weeks, but Wow! Where does the time go??!! So far, school has went fabulous for her! She has a good teacher and already had 3 friends in her class that she has known... including her crush from last year, but according to her, "oh mom, I am SO over him!!" Ha!

And just as Kylie was excited for her first acro class, you can't tell that she is excited to return to school can you??!! I forgot to take a picture of Chloe before her first acro class, so I will take it tomorrow before her class. Side note; Chloe loves acro sooooooo much more than ballet! She is so athletic. Acro suits her much better. After her first class, she ran out and showed me her cartwheel! Just 2 months ago, she wouldn't even try to do a cartwheel for me! This is going to be such a good year for her!!!!

** I big puffy heart my girls **

I am working on a better post...

2009-09-03T17:54:00.001-04:00

Hi, just wanted to stop by for a quick second, I am about to run Kylie to her first acro class!!!! But when I get home and get the girls to bed, I have a post that I am working on! Till then!

Just a quick note...

2009-08-30T09:34:00.002-04:00

Good Sunday Morning!!!

I am so excited for tomorrow, it means life will be very scheduled again!

Chloe will start her acro (tumbling) class tomorrow.

Then, the BIG day is Tuesday when my "baby" starts first grade!!!

Where does the time go?!

And Thursday is Kylie's first acro class!!!

I am so happy my baby is old enough to be in her own activities too!

We have had a busy week of preparing for school and acro.

Yesterday we were at Chuck E Cheese all *long* day for a party! It was Kylie's first time there and oh how she loved it!!!

The county fair has been going on this week. I haven't gone yet. Today is the last day. I don't know if its just the stress of everything going on between me and Jason again or what but I just haven't wanted to go. It also doesn't help that its the end of August and in the 60's! Really? Don't get me wrong, I don't like the 90's and 100's, but that is fair weather! Ugh. lol. But I guess we are going up today to let the girls ride the rides. Jason took them a few days ago to eat and play games.

Well, I am off to get some cleaning done before we head out.

Have a great day!!!

I am such a chicken....

2009-08-24T10:36:00.002-04:00

OK, funny story.....

About an hour ago, I walk outside to see if my mail is here......

(it wasn't)

I walk back to the entry door.....I stop cold and run the other way.....

Why?

There were 2 huge wasps just chillen on my door.

OK, I walk farther away. Nothing.

I get in my car and find small items to throw at them. I even broke up many pieces of chalk to throw....

Nothing is working.

Finally, my mailman (who is such a cutie) comes by... I jump out of my car and yell "Mark. help me, I can't get in!!!"

Being a nice guy, he kills the wasps for me and I can safely go inside.....

I have always been super afraid of bees and wasps, but a few weeks ago we were at a picnic and Jason walked right into an underground wasp nest..... There were seriously a thousand!! Anywho, they were so agressive, they even got into his socks!!!! He was stung 9x total. 8 between his feet and legs and one on his hand when he put his hand in his shoe. It was bad. But it could of been so much worse.

I understand the need for honey bees... but why on earth do we need wasps, yellowjackets, hornets, bumble bees, carpenter bees, ect??!!!

Yea ME!!!!!

2009-08-24T09:31:00.002-04:00

LOL....

Ok, I finally figured out how to make my blog into a 3 column layout!!!!

I am thrilled!!!!!

My next goal is to work on a header for me!!!!!

Maybe once my blog is all pretty and stuff, I will be more tempted to visit.. a lot more!

The county fair starts this week..... in case you forgot from last year, its a 5 minute walk down my street!! We normally go there every day to get our grub on.. but its sooooo cold here in Ohio.... like in the 60's and low to mid 70's. Ugh. Its so not August weather!!!!

have you missed me???

2009-08-22T19:43:00.003-04:00

**apology in advance for not so great picture quality... they are taken on my blackberry which doesn't like pictures I am assuming!**

Chloe is trying on her flower girl dress for my younger brothers upcoming wedding on September 19.
It will be a lot of fun, both of the girls are flower girls, but for some reason I can not find Kylies picture?

Chloe had her friend Kaylin stay the night for the first time!

The night was a blast! I took the 3 girls along with my mom to a park and got icecream.... I put Kylie to bed early and let the big girls stay up and watch a movie and eat popcorn...Then I finally got them into bed around midnight! *yikes*

I have talked for ever about an etsy shop..... I finally found my niche.

From top to bottom and left to right:
1.rustic and distressed hand painted signs
2. bright and cheery name signs
3. stitcheries, either in pillow form or in a frame (the crow not yet finished)
4. hand dipped reed diffusers in various scents....

Once I have more stocked up, I will open shop! Keep checking in to see when it will open!! I will also do a giveaway when I open!

My big 6 year old.....
Wow, the things that will happen to you soon....

As of a few days ago, she has lost a total of 6 teeth, with 2 very loose ones left in the front.....

She is starting her acro (tumbling) class soon (oh, so is Kylie!)

Start of first grade....that is a major achievement! It is so hard for me to accept her growing up so fast!!! I love just hugging her and our special talks! She will always be my princess no matter how old she is!

I hope everyone out in bloggy land has been doing great! Even without me blogging, I am still tweeting and reading everyones blogs! I will be much better at the blog thing as I get my shop up and running and get a schedule for the girls activities!!!

HUMM...

2009-07-28T00:05:00.002-04:00

OK, Life has been so normal here lately....

So DULL if you ask me!

I compiled a list of fun things to do with the girls and we are going to get to it befroe school starts!

Other than that, there is no new news! ha.

I went to the doctor today to find out why I am having so many headaches and so much bruising... I will find out more when I get the blood results back....

Really.... thats the most excitement that has happened lately!

Just wanted to say HI!

random thoughts

2009-07-21T10:19:00.002-04:00

* I need to learn html so I can give my blog a good makeover!

* I am super excited for the new school year to start for my Chloe. First grade. What a big step.... but along with new year of school, she will have ballet, acro, and soccer to keep her busy!

* Kylie will be 3 in December. Time flys so fast.... I remember holding my itty bitty baby like it was yesterday

*We are moving soon and I am so excited! It will feel really good to downsize a bit. Although, I will seriously miss the built in dressers in every walk in closet and my masive butlers bar in the dining room!!!!

*Chloe is just growing up so fast! She had her first sleep over at her best friends house and it went smoothly!!!

* I am pretty content with where my life is now....... but there is always room to change and improve!

our second morning in VB excitement....

2009-07-18T10:17:00.002-04:00

At the base housing that my BIL and SIL live in, there are playgrounds on every corner.. which made for a lot of fun times with the kiddos until....

On our second morning in Virginia Beach, my BIL ran inside yelling that there was a fire right across the street at one of the playgrounds...

Naturally, we all ran out. Within 5 minutes almost 1/2 of it was destroyed.In the above picture, you can see it after a few minutes of burning
This is about 8 minutes of burn time, still no firetrucks...

And here is the aftermath, you may have to click on the picture to see a closer view.

What caused it?? After an investigation, 2 stupid tween boys, an accelerant, and a lighter were the cause. They lit the multch on fire.

Vacation pictures

2009-07-14T09:30:00.004-04:00

Sorry for the pictures being all over the place, I had trouble uploading them! end of the day happiness from Chloe!
they really do love each other!

Colonial Williamsburg

Kylie and her sweet sky blue eyes!

Kylie and Joe playing in the sand

Kylie and one of Jason's nephews Nick... waiting to head to the Naval Beach

Me attempting to teach Chloe how to roller skate!

Chloe, Nana (Jason's mom), and Kylie

The cousins: Nick, Kylie, Joe, Chloe

Kylie helping Papa fix something

A great way to come home!

2009-07-09T12:43:00.002-04:00

So, while on my vaca to Virginia Beach, I was notified that I won a giveaway that I entered shortly before I left.....((picture copied from Cindy @ Our Primitive Heart))

Just look at that picture! It really does no justice of the quality and the delish smell of the pillow, crow, stocking, HUGE American flag, the smaller American flag, the prim Annie doll!!!

When I opened the box, I was just in HEAVEN!!!!

((Even my hubs was impressed!))

Kylie **hearts** the Annie doll.

The same day, I went to the 4th of July festival Wellington has and purchased a beautiful basket from a local Amish woman ((super cheap and super high quality!!))

Anywho, the large flag and Annie have found a home in the basket next to one of my couches... When I get around to it, I will take a picture of it with my phone!

My MIL is coming over tomorrow to upload all of her pictures of the girls from our vaca so I will share those soon!!!

Virginia Beach.....

2009-07-07T09:11:00.002-04:00

We are home!!!!! Virginia Beach was a blast!!!! The girls loved the ocean, and Chloe is such a little fish. In the blurry pic below, you can see her sporting her SPIDERMAN arm floaties and swim ring! Ha. She has such a crush on him for some reason!!! My little Kylie sporting her Dora floaties! She wasn't as fond of the deep water, but loved to play in the surf... Until she would get knocked down and get a taste of the salt water! Either way, she had a blast!!!

We got to go to the beach 3x and a water park. We also went to Colonial Williamsburg. That was so much fun!!! I am waiting for my MIL to bring her camera over so I can upload those pictures too...

I finally got everything unpacked and put away. My house is clean. I feel much better now. Now, it is time to adjust to life at home again and get back into our routines....

Although, when I ran to Walmart with Chloe the other day, I got very sad. They are already putting school supplies out!!!!! Omgosh, school supplies!!!! Its only a month or so away till my baby girl is in first grade!!!!!!

Hopefully, I can make another post this week with the rest of our pictures!!!!

wow!!!!

2009-06-30T08:58:00.002-04:00

Wow, it has been forever since I posted here!!!! Its been a very crazy month, I can say that much!

First we went to West Virginia for our good friends wedding in Glenville.... it was so beautiful there! Very peaceful and the people are so sweet!!!!!

Then my Chloe turned 6 on the 23rd! Where does the time go? I remember changing her diapers and just cuddling with her for hours, now my first born can read books by her self, cook with supervision, and help around the house!! Her birthday was followed with a HUGE carnival party on Saturday!!!! We had 25 kids there!!!! There were no fights, all of the kids had soooo much fun!!!!!! (( I will have pictures soon, as I still don't have a new camera and my family took them all for me))

Sunday, the day after her party, we left at 8am to make the trip to Virginia Beach! We had to make many stops for my Chloe. Poor things gets terrible motion sickness. Like seriously, every 2 hours we had to stop! But its better than having to clean up the mess in my car!

So, yesterday we went to one of the Naval Beaches down here since my BIL is in the Navy... the girls LOVED the ocean!!!!!!! Chloe is such a fish out of water!!! She went out very far on her own, it actually scared me for a minute! Jason was with her the whole time, unless I was with her! Kylie on the other hand, oh my Kylie. She was very nervous and apprehensive. But with mommy holding her, I got her to go far enough into the ocean to at least get her shoulders wet! Today we are heading to VA Beach when Jason and my BIL get back from the gym!!!!

Just like with Chloes birthday party, I will have a ton of pictures of our trip down here soon. My SIL and MIL have taken 1000s of pictures of the girls and us. I will post those when I get home and have access to more!!!! Until then, I hope everyone is having a great summer so far!!!!!

Just a quick hello

2009-06-06T11:21:00.001-04:00

HI all! I am still alive...

I am still here....

I just wanted to stop by and say hi real quick,

I will be back later today after work to update the past month!!!

Have a great sunny day!!!!! =)

The best way.....

2009-05-05T20:26:00.006-04:00

to fight an attempted rape....

(click on picture to see a larger view)

Happy weekend....

2009-05-03T13:00:00.003-04:00

Here is a sweet little picture of the girls when Kylie was only 3 weeks old!!!

Life has been very busy this past week!!!!

Friday: worked then took Chloe to her dance rehersal

Saturday: worked then went to the actual recital...

OMG the recital was the most amazing thing!!!! Sometime this week I will have to try and put a samll video up of the rehersal (we weren't allowed to video the actual recital....weird, I know!)

Chloe rocked it out!!!! She plans on staying in ballet next year along with acro and soccer.... Yea!

Kylie is also old enough to be put in an activity... I am thinking a summer acro class for her!!! =)

I am just loving the time I get to spend with the girls!!!! They are so unique and funny.....

Still no news on the marriage situation... I will take that one day at a time.

Work is still great! =)

My 27th birthday is coming up on the 17th....

Truth be told, I am very not excited to even celebrate this year.

There are too many bad things happening to people I love....

I am not expecting anything either....

Ugh. I hate being a downer... but this birthday will suck.

Only awesome thing is: May 19th we will see Zac Brown Band!!

(chicken fried song guy! )

still no camera!

2009-04-22T17:32:00.002-04:00

I still don't have a camera...

boo!

Hopefully very soon... although, I have a feeling he is making me wait till it gets closer to my birthday

Yet again, boo!

So, I figured I would share a picture of my little cupcake at this exact time last year eating,

Yep, you guessed it

a cupcake....

although, I think she just liked the frosting and though the actual cake part would make a better hat? hum.

Things are the same around here right now though....

Jason and I haven't discussed what is going on with us....

personally, I know I am taking a very passive role in not initiating a talk, right now I am just too burned out to talk. We still have a few months before we are due to move...

so my thoughts are just act and be happy right now.

Not for him, but for me and for the girls, and around him if I so feel inclined.

The talk to find out exactly what is going on will happen.

Obviously.

I am just not in a rush to talk for the first time.

I am prepared either way.

I love him dearly and I would love to stay his wife for ever,

But if that doesn't happen, I know I will be ok....

I have wrote 10 pages front and back in my journal the past few days...

Ugh. I am rambling all around and I am sure I am not making much sense. (ha)

So, I will sum it up: I love him, no idea what is going on, I don't want to talk about our issues at this time with him, I am working and loving it, I love my girls, I can not wait to see Chloe's ballet recital, I can not wait to watch her play soccer, I can not wait to see Kylie do an activity some time soon!

life explained....

2009-04-21T07:40:00.001-04:00

I got this email today and I thought it was cute, so I decided I would share:

On the first day, God created the dog and said:'Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. For this, I will give you a life span of twenty years.'The dog said: 'That's a long time to be barking. How about only ten years and I'll give you back the other ten?'So God agreed.

On the second day, God created the monkey and said:'Entertain people, do tricks, and make them laugh. For this, I'll give you a twenty-year life span.'The monkey said: 'Monkey tricks for twenty years? That's a pretty long time to perform. How about I give you back ten like the Dog did?'And God agreed.

On the third day, God created the cow and said:'You must go into the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves and give milk to support the farmer's family. For this, I will give you a life span of sixty years.'The cow said: 'That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years... How about twenty and I'll give back the other forty?'And God agreed again.

On the fourth day, God created humans and said:'Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. For this, I'll give you twenty years.'But the human said: 'Only twenty years? Could you possibly give me my twenty, the forty the cow gave back, the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back; that makes eighty, okay?''Okay,' said God, 'You asked for it.'So that is why for our first twenty years we eat, sleep, play and enjoy ourselves. For the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family. For the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren. And for the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.Life has now been explained to you.There is no need to thank me for this valuable information. I'm doing it as a public service.

hows life?

2009-04-18T18:55:00.003-04:00

hows my life going?

well....

I have started working at Jason's uncle bar a few days a week...

its great! I love it there...... plus tips aren't too bad either!

marriage is.... I don't know. Issues are up again.... just like clockwork every few months he is depressed and brings up the "d" word... we'll see......

the girls are good.... chloe starts soccer monday

thats my life right now.

taking chloe to ballet... soccer.... me working... and just being with my girls.

UPDATED:
He took his ring off. He is serious this time.

just happy!

2009-04-11T08:50:00.002-04:00

I haven't been around blogworld too much....

Just really nothing to say......

Or I have just been too busy.....

Last night was a really nice night! My brothers girlfriend Jennie invited us to her parents farm for an Easter Egg hunt with the girls and my nephew Jordan...

A few days ago, Jennie gave me a heads up that my dad would be there...

I know that doesn't seem like a big thing, but I haven't seen my dad since December 27, 2005! We had a very big fallout after Faith was born and I haven't even talked to him until the past 4 months!

He hasn't seen Chloe since she was 2 1/2... He has never met Kylie....

Everything went great!!! The girls were thrilled to see him (Chloe and I have talked about him a few times and I have showed her pictures of him). And he was thrilled to see the girls!! Now that we got the weird "get to know you" phase out of the way, we are planning on getting together more often! =)

And Jennie's parents are just so outright NICE!!! The even have a peacock on their farm!!!! =)

It was just a good night! Today I am heading to my friends bridal shower and later hiding eggs.

Happy Easter!!!!!!

Ugh.

2009-03-31T09:06:00.003-04:00

I know I am normally cheery, but I am just so irritated right now!!!!

We went out Saturday to his uncles bar a few towns over that I will be working at... Stupid me, left my camera with J and his uncle (both were very drunk) while I talked to someone, yep. They walked away not thinking, it was stolen.

Great.

I find out some info last night that proves that some one I loved and trusted is going behind my back and lying. Great.

I am just so mad right now. I didn't sleep much last night. I know the camera is trivial. I can always buy a new one...but the person's trust... I don't think they will ever get it back.

Heres hoping you are having a better day than I am!

On that note, I am off to Target once Chloe gets home from school for some retail therapy.

Bette

2009-03-28T12:01:00.002-04:00

Bridgett posted this really unique quiz. Take it!!!! It was very much head on for me!!! =)

You Are a Bette!
You are a Bette -- "I must be strong"
Bettes are direct, self-reliant, self-confident, and protective.
How to Get Along with Me
* Stand up for yourself... and me.
* Be confident, strong, and direct.
* Don't gossip about me or betray my trust.
* Be vulnerable and share your feelings. See and acknowledge my tender, vulnerable side.
* Give me space to be alone.
* Acknowledge the contributions I make, but don't flatter me.
* I often speak in an assertive way. Don't automatically assume it's a personal attack.
* When I scream, curse, and stomp around, try to remember that's just the way I am.

What I Like About Being a Bette
* being independent and self-reliant
* being able to take charge and meet challenges head on
* being courageous, straightforward, and honest
* getting all the enjoyment I can out of life
* supporting, empowering, and protecting those close to me
* upholding just causes

What's Hard About Being a Bette
* overwhelming people with my bluntness; scaring them away when I don't intend to
* being restless and impatient with others' incompetence
* sticking my neck out for people and receiving no appreciation for it
* never forgetting injuries or injustices
* putting too much pressure on myself
* getting high blood pressure when people don't obey the rules or when things don't go right

Bettes as Children Often
* are independent; have an inner strength and a fighting spirit
* are sometimes loners
* seize control so they won't be controlled
* figure out others' weaknesses
* attack verbally or physically when provoked
* take charge in the family because they perceive themselves as the strongest, or grow up in difficult or abusive surroundings

Bettes as Parents
* are often loyal, caring, involved, and devoted
* are sometimes overprotective
* can be demanding, controlling, and rigid

Want to see what you are? Go HERE.

Twilight Tide Pettiskirt GIVEAWAY!!!!

2009-03-28T11:50:00.000-04:00

Twilight Tide Pettiskirt GIVEAWAY!!!!

The uncuteness

2009-03-24T11:47:00.002-04:00

Aliya, my (we swear) sister separated at birth tagged me to declare 10 of the most uncute things about me...

(These will be in no particular order, I will just type them as they come to me)

1. I too quickly judge a book by its cover. I am notorious for this. I also find that it turns around to bite me in the rear end eventually so I am working real hard on changing this one.

2. I am very OCD. Everything in the world has its place, but if you move it just slightly from its perfect spot, I will notice and I will not be able to relax until it is put back.

3. Like Aliya, I have an addictive personality. If you read her #10, the same goes for me. When I hear a song I love, I will listen to it until it becomes so old that I can't stand it. When I find a new food I love, I will want to do nothing but eat that until I tire of it and never eat it again.

4. I actually love to clean my house. To clarify, not pick up the 10,000,000 toys we own, but actually cleaning.... except dusting and cleaning the stairs! We have hard wood floors and stairs and I am forever dusting. Ugh, and I swear everything in the world gets stuck in the corners of stairs.

5. I procrastinate on things that don't matter to me. If it benefits me or my girls, I am all over it.

6.I have a semi - bad temper and that makes me swear, a lot. I have always worked on controlling this, its just so hard when there are so many stupid people out there. Ugh. Seriously, why do they have to be out in the world? Just stay home!

7. Some days I would much rather do crafts, clean, or just look around on the computer than play with my girls. OK, I know this sounds HORRIBLE but I AM a stay at home mom that is with her kids all of the time. And I did say SOME DAYS!

8. I shop way too much. I know, I know, how can you shop way too much right? Well, I personally don't think so, but for some reason Hubs (who is the only one bringing money in) thinks so! ha. That won't change! =)

9. I won't forget what you have done to me. Ever. I might "forgive" you for MY sake, but I will never forget it. Hell, I will even bring it up 10 years down the road given the right circumstances!

10. For a long time after loosing Faith, I was very angry at God. I blamed Him. I am so ashamed to admit that I did not have a strong belief in Him. That has all changed now. I think that would definitely be my most uncute thing!

I am not going to tag anyone else... but I encourage you to do this. It really made me think about some uncute things I think/feel/do. Give it a try!!!

*Dont forget about the giveaway, it ends Saturday!*

Say a prayer

2009-03-24T09:55:00.002-04:00

My Best Katie, her grandfather and her family are in need of prayers right now.

If anyone has stopped over to Katie's blog in the past few months

you would know that her sweet grandpa is dying of lung cancer.

Yesterday Katie called me and informed me that she is not allowed to see him until his passing.

Hospice or the doctors put him into a medically induced coma (he was in an extreme amount of pain).

Katie and her grandfather were really close

this is the HARDEST thing Katie will have to go thru .

"Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live " John 11:25

Chicken Fried

2009-03-23T12:21:00.003-04:00

I can not wait until May 19! Why? Its 2 days after my birthday and my hubs and I along with a bunch of friends are going to see Zac Brown band!!!! Woo Hoo!!!

I know you hate me for that Katie!

I will take a lot of pictures for you... =)

**Don't forget the giveaway ends Saturday**

Things I have worked on and the girls

2009-03-22T11:46:00.004-04:00

Like I have said, I have been busy around the house...

I am just terrible at remembering to actually take pictures or upload them anymore!

Well, I have done good with capturing a few pictures of what I am doing with my time.

First up, this table has been passed around my family. It originally belonged to my Great Aunt. She passed it on to my sister and brother in law when the first married over 20 years ago! Then when Jason and I moved in to our home 3 years ago we got it.... The table has just been sitting in the living room, looking very blah (it does have a glass top that I just removed before the picture was taken). So last night, I got out my black paint and went to town (as I have been busy painting everything black in my home then distressing it when dry).

Here is the final result. The Americana basket doesn't look right under it now so I will find a new home for that.... And the deer antlers... Well, ya'll know Jason is an engineer/conductor for the railroad right? One night while on the train, they had to stop and low and behold what did he see near the tracks? Yep, a dead deer. So, my hilbilly hubs hopped off the train and cut the antlers off! Ha.

This is just a simple every day battery operated light I got at Drug Mart during winter.... It just sat there on this stand looking very boring....

Until I got out the spices and paint!!!!

Kylie loves to go to it to smell the cinnamon and nutmeg!!! =]

Just a simple checkerboard I painted. The original owner/builder of my home was the owner of the local lumber yard here in town. Which means my house has solid wood built in's in every room. Every bedroom has a walkin closet with built in dressers, the dinning room has a built in butlers bar, the living room has 2 built in bookshelves along with built in shelves in the closet... Well, I was scronging (sp? lol) around the closets one day and found extra wood boards (!) So when Kylie napped, I got out the saw and went to town! After a coat of paint, some haphazard checker marks and stain, voila a prim checkerboard for just the cost of paint! =]

Miss sweet Kylie. Already practicing how to drive!

The great thing about that Barbie Ferari?

It was MINE!!!

I passed it on to my neice when she was younger, my sister saved it and now my girls get to play with it!!!!

Isn't that fun?!

Chloe is popping teeth out like there is no tomorrow!!! The going rate for the tooth fairy around here is $1. She is doing ok with that, even though originally she asked for a whopping $10!!!

Alright folks, I am off to finish up a springy stitchery that I started today!

And put out our Easter decorations since its not freezing today!!! =]

Have a great Sunday!

**Don't forget about the giveaway**

You have until next Saturday to enter!

Drum roll please....

2009-03-21T16:37:00.002-04:00

Sorry for the delay in posting the giveaway! Here is what is up for grabs:

You get to choose if you want to be entered in the penny rug giveaway or the fabric hair clip giveaway or both (just please make sure you let me know!)

(candle not included)
Penny Rug: cream colored felt with contrasting black and brown felt circles.

Measures just shy of 9".

Lovely messy fabric flower hair clip set has a combination of jean material, pink cord material and yummy summer fruit and flower fabric.

How can you win of of these? Simple.

1. Leave a comment on this blog about one of your favorite spring time activites

2. Blog about the giveaway for an extra entry (just make sure you let me know)

3. Be a follower of my blog for another extra entry

That gives you 3 opportunites to win!!!

I will draw a random entry for both giveaways on Saturday March 28.

later today

2009-03-21T09:18:00.003-04:00

I know I promised my giveaway yesterday

but I ended up waiting at the doctors office for 4 hours

plus I had house work to do...

So stay tuned for the giveaway TODAY!!! (LOL)

I figure a day late is better than never!!! =]

Im still here!

2009-03-19T09:19:00.003-04:00

I am still here...

I have just been busy around the house...

with the girls...

shopping...

crafting (pictures to come of all of that)....

relaxing.....

tomorrow marks my 1 year blogaversary!

as I promised, there will be a giveaway ~ make sure you come back tomorrow and check it out!

Chloe's 21 answers....

2009-03-12T21:12:00.002-04:00

Sarah had her daughter answer a few questions and I thought they were really cute, so I had Chloe sit down with me and do the same!

1. What is something mom always says to you?
~Good morning sweetie

2. What makes mommy happy?
~When I pick up

3. What makes mom sad?
~When I don't pick up

4. How does mom make you laugh?
~When you tickle me

5. What was mom like as a child?
~She always listened to her mom, my grandma

6. How old is mom?
~24 or some other kind of big number

7. How tall is mom?
~20 feet

8. What is moms favorite thing to do?
~Go shopping and do crafts

9. What does mom do when you are not around?
~Oh, thats easy. Clean the house!

10. If mom became famous, what would it be for?
~Your looks

11. What is mom really good at?
~ Love

12. What is mom not really good at?
~Letting the house get dirty

13. What does mom do for her job?
~Ugh. Baby sit Kylie....although you don't get paid and you are home

14.What is moms favorite food?
~Lasagne? Grilled cheese? Ok, can you give me a hint... just a small hint?

15. What makes you proud of your mom?
~hugs and kisses and you spoil me

16. If mom were a cartoon character, who would I be?
~Tasha from the Backyardigans...

~Because you are bossy like she is and she thinks she is a princess too

17. What do you and mom do together?
~Go to the playground, crafts, bake, and do our nails

18. How are you and mom the same?
~We have to have things our way

19. How are you and mom different?
~ You have dark hair and I have light hair

20. How do you know your mom loves you?
~All of the hugs and kisses and you always say so

21. Where is your mom's favorite place to go?
~anywhere you can shop!

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Why o why...

2009-03-03T15:11:00.003-05:00

Does Chloe seem to HATE me these past 3 days??!!!

Curious?!

She has ONLY listened to me when Jason is around, which anyone who has read my blog before, knows he is gone at work, A LOT....

One thing she did was today before school, she was playing on her Nintendo DS (no biggie)... when it was time to go, I told her to put it in its case and she could play when she got home... Oh apparently that was not clear enough because when I picked her up at 11:30 from the bus stop, guess what was in her hands?? And with a BIG smile on her face "What? Jacob (her crush) wanted to play!" ugh.

There are so many more examples from the past 3 days, but I hate advertising it all!!! Laugh.

I know this is a faze, please tell me she will grow out of it soon!!!!!

P.S. You can even lie to me about it!!! Im ok with that!

less than a month away....

2009-02-28T10:18:00.003-05:00

till I have been blogging for a year (3/20/08) !!! That is crazy how fast it went by!

I remember all of the stuff that was going on last year ...

Like knowing that at some point we were heading to Tenneessee to visit his grandparents due to his grandfathers heart surgery.... when Katie and I became weekly coffee buddies .... enjoying the warmer weather with daily (sometimes 2x a day) walks... ok, there is so much more...

So, since my Valentines day giveaway didn't work out with Chloe being in the hospital and such, I am working on a great one for my blogaversary!! And this time, no matter what it will happen!! lol

T.G.I.F.

2009-02-27T18:09:00.003-05:00

OK, I have been a super bad blogger (sort of my thing lately)

Its been a combo of having nothing really exciting going on and just being busy keeping up with the girls!!!

So, I guess I will start off with updating on Chloe... I took her to an allergist on Wed. The Doctor did the 19 prick test and she tested positive for 12.... being: cat pelt, cat hair, dog, cockroach, mite df, mite dp, alernaria, aspergillus,cladosporium, marshelder/burweed, and histamine. So, now we are trying to find a GOOD home for our beloved Starly (the cat). It is way too much work to keep her out of Chloe's room and the playroom. (Girls love to never shut a door when asked, but boy oh boy, tell them not to shut a certain door and its slammed within a second!!LOL) She also has to go get blood work done to determine if she has an autoimmune disorder that is causing her repeat pnemonia... That is all I know so far on that, so when she goes back for her followup, I will fill you in.... Any parents out there with kids with allergies???!! How do you handle them??!!!

Kylie is doing great! She has become such a spit fire lately. Some days I want to call Nanny 911 on her!!! Laugh. (kidding)

I have been trying to keep busy around the house with little crafts... when I get one done, I will show pics!!!

Have a great weekend!!!

Anthropolification Boyer Cream Cardi GIVEAWAY!!!! GIVEAWAY!!!!

2009-02-25T09:59:00.000-05:00

Anthropolification Boyer Cream Cardi GIVEAWAY!!!! GIVEAWAY!!!!

Blushing Buttercream Pettiskirt GIVEAWAY!!!!

2009-02-23T10:13:00.000-05:00

I am so in LOVE with these pettiskirts!!!! I know my girls would be too! If you want a chance to win, go visit Grosgrain and enter!!!! =]
Blushing Buttercream Pettiskirt GIVEAWAY!!!!

Friend Makin' Monday on a Saturday!

2009-02-21T01:22:00.002-05:00

1. jog or walk: WALK
2. coffee or tea: SWEET TEA, HOT TEA, OK, ANY TEA!
3. Pepsi or coca cola: COKE
4. flats or heels: I <3 MY HEELS!!!! BUT WHEN ITS WARM, I LOVE MY FLIP FLOPS!
5. fries or onion rings: FRIES
6. cats or dogs: CATS
7. skim or whole: YUCK! BUT I BUY 2% FOR THE GIRLS
8. small purses or large: THE BIGGER THE BETTER!
9. van or SUV: SUV
10. winter or summer: LATE SUMMER/EARLY FALL
11. 1 piece bathing suit or 2: I LOVE 2 PIECES, I PUT A LOT OF WORK INTO MY BODY, I DESERVE TO SHOW IT OFF!
12. sit down restaurant or fast food: SIT DOWN, AS LONG AS I DON'T HAVE THE GIRLS
13. McDonalds or Burger King: MCDONALDS
14. White Gold or Yellow: PLATINUM
15. Fish or Chicken: CHICKEN
16. Edward or Jacob: NEITHER... ONLY VAMPIRE RELATED THING I LIKE IS TRUE BLOOD ON HBO... GUYS ARE JUST CRAZY HOT!
17. Pizza or Burger: YUMMMO FOR BOTH!
18. apple or orange: JOHNA GOLD APPLES
19. Spend or save: SPEND, SPEND, SPEND!!!!!
20. 1 story or 2 story house: I WANT A 1 STORY.. CURRENTLY HAVE A 2 STORY, PLUS A FULL BASEMENT AND FULL ATTIC.... WAY TOO MANY STAIRS!!!!

Want to play along??? All you have to do is visit Kasey here, follow her instructions and start making some new friends!!!!

Still nothing...

2009-02-21T01:01:00.002-05:00

My mini me Chloe

Sweet Kylie looking very deep in thought
.

Hubs and the girls "roaring" at me
.

Starly sleeping inbetween Chloes comforter

I figured a post with nothing but pictures was much better than me just saying...still nothing!

Hubs and I are supposed to play a card game with his parents, aunt, uncle, cousin and cousin's girlfriend tomorrow.... Its a very fun game, but I have no idea of the name...

Chloe is still doing well! And omgosh, I think she is actually really good at math! Maybe that came out "wrong" but I say it like that because, I have always had a lot of trouble with simple math (adding, subtracting, multiplying, dividing, ect) Once I got to algebra, calculus, trig, I began to improve my math grades... but Chloe's teacher has sent home so many notes praising how fast she picks up math related material!!! I have also had 2 of her teachers tell me that she will be in advanced classes when they start. I am so proud of her!!!!

Kylie is amazing me every day!!! There are so many days I forget she is only 2 years old! I love that she is still small enough to hold and cuddle, yet can actually have a full conversation with me! And the best part of her talking is 1. there is no more guess work on what she wants to drink or eat and 2. if she is crying while playing with Chloe, she tells me if Chloe hit her or not... I know that will change eventually when she figures out that if she "fibs" then Chloe will get her in trouble, but for now I am enjoying it!

Nothing new

2009-02-15T10:08:00.002-05:00

Good morning!!! =] So, I really don't have much to talk about, the past few days have really been me yelling at Chloe to sit down (so she doesnt get worked up and start coughing more), for Kylie to leave her sissy alone, for the girls to play nicely, ect.... Fun hunh? I still need to up load pics of the stuff I have made in the past week or so for the girls!!!! Maybe today if I get time!!??

Last night J got home early enough (11pm) for us to go uptown! So to Forts we went.... I had Katie come up and chill for a bit. The night was very uneventful! It was just nice to get out of the house for a bit and not be stuck in a itty bitty hospital room!!!! =]

Have a great Sunday!!!!

Here I am again!

2009-02-13T16:18:00.002-05:00

So, this has been the craziest week in a long time!!! Chloe has suffered with a slight cough on and off since school has started. Well, Monday was no exception when woke up before school with another little cough. I was going to call her doctor that day, but just forgot.... So then when she went to bed I figured I would just call first thing in the morning and get her in..... Apparently that wasn't a good idea!! She woke around midnight to use the restroom and I checked in on her because I heard her making a lot of funny noises.... she was weezing... I gave her more cough medicine since she was due and put her to bed with a breathing treatment and the vaporizor. Two hours later she was in my room worse than before and asking for more medicine! Around 530 I was able to get ahold of my mother in law for her to sit with Kylie while I ran Chloe to the hospital. I was absolutely petrified for her! Chloe is so full of life and energy! But Tuesday morning, my poor princess didn't even have the energy to hold her self up while using the restroom, her eyes looked so vacant, she could barely breath, you could see her little chest and belly going out so far to grab onto any air she could! She was weezing so hard and loud.

At the first hospital, after 3 breathing treatments, a steroid and oxygen, they decided it would be best if she was admitted. They called her pedi and she agreed. So, me and 2 HUGE EMT's got her blood drawn and an IV line in place. That broke my heart on top of everything else she was going thru. She finally calmed down and we sat there watching hour after hour of Pokemon (I swear, I am a Pokemon expert now!) Waiting for Jason, my mother in law, and the ambulance to come. ((The hospital we were at doesn't admit children under 6)) So, she was taken a half hour away to a very good childrens hospital. Jason drove my car up while I rode in the ambulance. Once we got to the new hospital they admitted her and the waiting game began.

We found out her white blood cell count was 32000!!!! The Pedi on call DR said a normal range for kids is like 5,000!!!!! Obviously she had pnemonia, but what else was making her count so high? Found an ear infection and then after a CAT scan, found that she had blockage in all 3 of her sinus'. (For those who don't know, kids only have 3 sinus' while adults have 4). Up until yesterday afternoon, her breathing was very hard, labored, weezy. She is currently on 2 different antibiotics, her breathing treatments, claritin, singular, and motrin (as needed for discomfort). She is such a trooper. It just killed me to watch them do blood work on her every day along with the other crap they would do. Thankgoodness we had really good nurses!!!

Today Chloe "feels great" but when I listen to her chest, there is still a lot of crackling. She will see her pedi on Monday and then soon an allergist. This is the 2nd time in a year she has had full blown pnemonia along with the 1 case of walking pnemonia.

She was so sad today when she realized she missed her class V-day party! But her teacher is so sweet and dropped off her Valentines and homework!!! When Chloe read the valentine from her crush, she "fainted". So cute!!!

Well, I am off to get some dinner ready for me and my girls!!!

OHH, as for the giveaway, I am going to hold off on that for a little bit, but don't fret, that means it will be that much better!!!

Happy Valentines day tomorrow!!!!

And happy Friday the 13th today!!!!!! =]

I haven't forgotten you!!!

2009-02-09T09:34:00.002-05:00

I know I said for my 100th post I would have a super cute giveaway, well being sick for 3 1/2 weeks put that on hold!!! I just didn't want you guys to think I abandoned you!!! I am feeling much better right now. I have almost regained all of my hearing, although I still have a lot of ringing and sometimes muffled heart beats.... this is the WORST ear infection I have ever had.... I have gone thru 2 packs of z-pack since I am allergic to pcn. Hopefully I will feel 100% really soon!!!!!

In the mean time, I did make Chloe a pillowcase dress for V-day, an appliqued heart shirt for V-day, a ton of fabric flower hairclip sets and a few other things for my girls... My giveaway was going to be for V-day, but since it is only a few days away, we will do something springy insted.. but that will be my next post!!! Promise!!!! I just really wanted to check in and say hi, let you know I am still here... just trying to feel better!!!

Catch up and a giveaway!

2009-01-30T10:09:00.002-05:00

OK, first I will catch you up to speed.... girls are better! Me on the other hand got worse!!!! Wed. night I woke up around 11pm (fell asleep watching CSI) and my right ear was just in terrible pain!!!! "Went to bed" Meaning I slept for maybe an hour due to the pain. My whole right side of the face and head was numb, I have a very loud but muffled ringing, burning sensation and severe pain! (Fun stuff let me tell you)... So yesterday morning, my sweet mom takes off work and watches the girls so I can run to the local ER. I have a very bad inner ear infection! They gave me yucky ear drops, antibiotic, and vicoden.... Thanks to all 3 meds, I actually slept very well... once I fell asleep! Hopefully later today or tomorrow my hearing will return and the numbness and ringing will be gone!!! When I say numb, I mean the feeling of being shot with novacane from the dentist numb!!!!!

OK, the title said a giveaway too...... My next post will be my 100th!!!! (That was semi fast!) So, I am currently working on a giveaway for you lovely ladies!!!!! Stay tuned!!!!!!!

Needing some ideas....

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First off, thanks a bunch to the lovely ladies that helped me out with music... seems we have quite a bit in common!!!! But rehearing the names always helps me download fresh songs! Thanks a ton!!!! =]

OK, next helping topic is.... DINNERS!!! lol I have my standard dinners. I think we are all getting tired of eating the same ole food every other week... I know I can google 1000000's of recipes but I like to hear from ladies I actually know!!! lol To help give you an idea of foods we eat here: *Doesn't have to be healthy LOL
*Jason and I LOVE spicy!!!!!!!!!! I just don't like chipotle. But bring on c. pepper and hotsauce!
*Easy, kind of quick....
*starting to look for good meals that I can make and or prepare then freeze and cook later.... or crock pot recipes or just prepare and cook meals!!! lol I am very easy!!!! =]

I would love to hear what you ladies have to say for this one!!!!! =] This week, I will share some of my faves!!!!

Stay warm!!!!!!

My crazy household and a tag!

2009-01-27T21:02:00.003-05:00

OK, we will get the yucky stuff out first....

Me? Feeling much better!!! No more sinus infection! Wooo Hooo!

Chloe? Awful fever and rotovirus (just the bottom end! ugh)

Kylie? Lowgrade fever and almost done with the sinus issues herself!

I think my hubs is healthy? I haven't seen him in a few days due to work. When he's home, he has to sleep... then he gets called right out again... At least he will be home late, late, late tonight! =]

FUN STUFF:

Amanda over at the very fun Vinyl Rocks my World tagged me to give up 7 random facts about ME!!!

1. No matter what I am eating, it has to have a condiment on it!!! Mayo, worchesterchire, mustard, ketchup.. ect!!! lol

2. I love to make lists and reorganize everything!!!! I swear, my best buds are a P-Touch and my notebook.

3. I started scrapping a year ago, and although I still love it, I have deeply fallen in love with sewing... and thanks to the blog/etsy worlds, I have found so many other things I would like to try my hand at!!!!!

4. When I was younger, I discovered that my name means Princess. From that day forth, I was hell bent that I was really a princess. Which ment, I would not do any chores, I would not help around the house in any way shape or form, I would walk around with my nose stuck so high in the air thinking that I was a real princess. I thought that one day, it would be discovered that I was switched at birth or adopted and the Queen and King would find me... OHHH how naive I was!!! hahahaha.

5. I am addicted to my computer! I have to check my email, myspace, and face book like 100,000's a day! (ok, maybe not that much, but it sure is a lot!)

6. Sometimes I wish I worked outside of the home.... but then once they are in bed and I have calmed down, I realize I would miss the fights and yelling more than I realize

7. I never, ever saw myself getting married!!!! I was the QUEEN of parties and going out!!!! Sure I had longterm boyfriends, but I couldn't see myself calming down. Every night of the week was a different club or house party. I knew I would have kids one day, I just doubted I would actually marry! With that being said, I am so thankful I did find Jason. That I found his love, our love.... I love being married (even with the terrible downs we have had) and I love being a mommy.

OK, I will tag:

My Bestest Katie at Katies Thoughts

Laura at A Form of Therapy

Bridgette at Doog & B Boo + Two

Jaime at Stampin Mom

Kate at the Buzy Bee

Sherry at If I could set my Soul Free

Music...

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I have such an eclectic taste of music.

I range from rock to country to pop to a little rap to old school stuff...

any who,

I need some ideas for new songs to download on my IPod.

Suggestions????

The future Ohio State cheerleader...

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The Band chant...Scream and Stomp (her fave!)

Give me a V dot the I curl the C-T-O-R-Y, Victory!

Look at all those little girls the Highschool cheerleaders had to teach! It was kindergarten thru 3rd grade!

It was very cute to watch her!!! I know she really did like it, but she was nervous. The girls did 7 or 8 cheers. It was funny to watch the chaos of all those little girls trying to do the same thing at the same time!!! I have to say, I am so proud of her, right before they started, her friend Allysiah's bracelet broke and Chloe hugged her and tried to comfort her, which got a lot of ahh's from the audience!!! =]

I registered Chloe for soccer today. She has been head over heels in awe with soccer for 2 years now! Last year we even bought her a pink soccer ball to kick around!!! I guess the "season" won't start until April then end in early June. Which is good because ballet goes until May. Which in May she gets to have her BIG recital in her fancy leotard!!!! The parents are not allowed to know which music has been selected or the routine (bummer) but I like the idea that I will get to be surprised! And Jason even made me really happy that he said he will make sure to take a vacation day for her recital!!! I know it seems like common sense for her daddy to go, but my dad never watched any of my ballet, my cheerleading, or my local modeling shows! So I am super proud for that!

Thats all the news here for now. I really want to do some crafting and really need to do some crafting! Its been such a long time!!! And I just realized I haven't even taken a picture of the pinny I made Chloe a few weeks ago!!! This upcoming weekend, I am off to buy some more fabric and start making some stuff for the girls!!! =] So, I will def. post pics then!!!

Have a great weekend!!!!

My lucky week!

2009-01-23T23:43:00.003-05:00

How cute is that fabric and ric rac?! I won all that awesome stuff from Shelly at My Lily Eden!!! Not only is she super duper sweet, she is super duper talented! Check out her Etsy shop for some fun spring shopping! Thanks again to Shelly!

A side note, I got my incredibly adorable hair clips today from Kate at the Buzy Bee!!!! I can't wait to share them with the girls!!! Chloe already started to coordinate what tops match!

Speaking of my Chloe. She did really good at cheering tonight. Omgosh was she nervous or what?! I will upload my pics tomorrow! It was super cute watching her and when she seen us, her face just LIT right up!!! I love my sweeties so much!

I have....

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I seen this list over at My Lily Eden and Joy's Hope and I thought it was a fun and informative way for you to get to know a little more about me! If you decide to do the list too, please link back to me and let me know! I would love to see your answers!!!

Ok, the things I have done will be in white.

I HAVE:
1. started your own blog
2. slept under the stars
3. played in a band
4. visited hawaii
5. watched a meteor shower
6. given more than you can afford to charity
7. been to disneyland/world
8. climbed a mountain
9. held a praying mantis
10. sang a solo ( many times thanks to drunk karaoke! )
11. bungee jumped
12. visited paris
13. watched a lightning storm at sea
14. taught yourself an art from scratch
15. adopted a child
16. had food poisoning
17. walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. grown your own vegetables
19. seen the mona lisa in france
20. slept on an overnight train
21. had a pillow fight
22. hitch hiked
23. taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. built a snow fort
25. held a lamb (does petting one at the county fair count?)
26. gone skinny dipping
27. run a marathon
28. ridden in a gondola in venice
29. seen a total eclipse
30. watched a sunrise or sunset
31. hit a home run (when I was in middle school)
32. been on a cruise (was going to do in 2008, but decided for 2009)
33. seen niagara falls in person
34. visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. seen an amish community
36. taught yourself a new language
37. had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. seen the leaning tower of pisa in person
39. gone rock climbing
40. seen michelangelo’s david
41. sung karaoke
42. seen old faithful geyser erupt
43. bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. visited africa
45. walked on a beach by moonlight
46. been transported in an ambulance
47. had your portrait painted
48. gone deep sea fishing
49. seen the sistine chapel in person
50. been to the top of the eiffel tower in paris
51. gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. kissed in the rain(my wedding day was one of the days!)
53. played in the mud
54. gone to a drive-in theater
55. been in a movie
56. visited the great wall of china
57. started a business
58. taken a martial arts class
59. visited russia
60. served at a soup kitchen
61. sold girl scout cookies
62. gone whale watching
63. gotten flowers for no reason
64. donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. gone sky diving
66. visited a nazi concentration camp
67. bounced a check(gotta love reckless youth)
68. flown in a helicopter
69. saved a favorite childhood toy
70. visited the lincoln memorial
71. eaten caviar (even though I HATE seafood!)
72. pieced a quilt
73. stood in times square
74. toured the everglades
75. been fired from a job
76. seen the changing of the guards in london
77. broken a bone (one too many!)
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. seen the grand canyon in person
80. published a book
81. visited the vatican
82. bought a brand new car
83. walked in jerusalem
84. had your picture in the newspaper
85. read the entire Bible
86. visited the white house
87. killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. had chickenpox
89. saved someone’s life
90. sat on a jury
91. met someone famous
92. joined a book club
93. lost a loved one
94. had a baby
95. seen the alamo in person
96. swam in the great salt lake
97. owned a cell phone
98. been stung by a bee
99. wrote a poem for someone else
100. given a toast at a wedding

My birthday...

2009-01-23T15:27:00.001-05:00

nope, its not today... I found this over at A Form of Therapy

17 May 1982

Your date of conception was on or about 24 August 1981 which was a Monday.
You were born on a Mondayunder the astrological sign Taurus.Your Life path number is 6.Your fortune cookie reads: Love always and deeply. Life Path Compatibility:You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2445106.5.The golden number for 1982 is 7.The epact number for 1982 is 5.The year 1982 was not a leap year.Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 1/25/1982 and ending 2/12/1983.You were born in the Chinese year of the Dog.Your Native American Zodiac sign is Beaver; your plant is Wild Clover.You were born in the Egyptian month of Epipy, the third month of the season of Shomu (Harvest).Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 24 Iyyar 5742.Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 25 Iyyar 5742.
The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.8.17.2 which is12 baktun 18 katun 8 tun 17 uinal 2 kin
The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Monday, 23 Rajab 1402 (1402-7-23).
The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 11 April 1982.The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 18 April 1982.The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 24 February 1982.The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 30 May 1982.The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 6 June 1982.The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 18 September 1982.The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 8 April 1982.The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 23 February 1982. As of 1/23/2009 3:25:14 PM ESTYou are 26 years old.You are 320 months old.You are 1,392 weeks old.You are 9,748 days old.You are 233,967 hours old.You are 14,038,045 minutes old.You are 842,282,714 seconds old.Celebrities who share your birthday:
Tahj Mowry (1987)
Andrea Corr (1974)
Jordan Knight (1970)
Trent Reznor (1965)
Enya (1961)
Sugar Ray Leonard (1956)
Bob Saget (1956)
Bill Paxton (1955)
Dennis Hopper (1936)
Maureen O'Sullivan (1911)
Ayatollah Khomeini (1902)Top songs of 1982
I Love Rock `n' Roll by Joan Jett & the Blackhearts
Eye of the Tiger by Survivor
Ebony and Ivory by Paul McCartney & Stevie Wonder
Centerfold by J. Geils Band
Maneater by Daryl Hall & John Oates
Jack & Diane by John Cougar
Don't You Want Me by Human League
Up Where We Belong by Joe Cocker & Jennifer Warnes
Abracadabra by Steve Miller Band
Hard to Say I'm Sorry by ChicagoYour age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.81526418786693 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)Your lucky day is Friday.Your lucky number is 6.Your ruling planet(s) is Venus.Your lucky dates are 6th, 15th, 24th.Your opposition sign is Scorpio.Your opposition number(s) is 9 & 11.
Today is not one of your lucky days!
There are 114 days till your next birthdayon which your cake will have 27 candles.Those 27 candles produce 27 BTUs,or 6,804 calories of heat (that's only 6.8040 food Calories!) .You can boil 3.09 US ounces of water with that many candles.
In 1982 there were approximately 3.6 million births in the US.In 1982 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.In 1982 in the US there were 2,495,000 marriages (10.8%) and 1,180,000 divorces (5.1%)In 1982 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.In 1982 the population of Australia was approximately 15,288,891.In 1982 there were approximately 239,903 births in Australia.In 1982 in Australia there were approximately 117,274 marriages and 44,088 divorces.In 1982 in Australia there were approximately 114,771 deaths.Your birthstone is Emerald -->The Mystical properties of Emerald
Though not meant to replace traditional medical treatment, Emerald is used for physical and emotional healing. Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Agate, ChrysopraseYour birth tree is
Chestnut Tree, the Honesty
Of unusual beauty, does not want to impress, well-developed sense of justice, vivacious, interested, a born diplomat, but irritable and sensitive in company, often due to a lack of self-confidence, acts sometimes superior, feels not understood, loves only once, has difficulties in finding a partner.There are 336 days till Christmas 2009!There are 349 days till Orthodox Christmas!The moon's phase on the day you wereborn was waning crescent.

Today

2009-01-23T12:03:00.002-05:00

Not much to say today or even lately for that matter! Midday yesterday, I was hit with the most awful sinus infection I have had in a LONG time!!!! Kylie is coughing up a storm plus running a terrible fever.......

Chloe is cheering tonight at the Varsity B-Ball game!!!!! I can't wait to see how she does! My poor pumpkin had such a busy day yesterday!!! Went to school, had gym class, went to cheer practice, then ballet!!!! Needless to say, I put her to bed early! lol

Tomorrow, I sign Chloe up for soccer. Plus I am supposed to go out with my younger brothers girlfriend Jennie and her friends for her birthday! But if this sinus infection is kicking my butt tomorrow like it is today, I will have to take a rain check (boo). Jennie is a sweetheart!!!! She is so sweet, genuine and wonderful all around! She is terrific with his son!!! Actually, she is a better mommy to Jordan than Johnny's psycho ex wife is! One day I will get her as my sis in law!!!

Thats about how everything has been going! Sick. Oh, even my cat is throwing up! Ha ha.

Heres hoping y'all are having a better week than I am!!! =]

Happy

2009-01-21T09:31:00.002-05:00

Im just happy I am getting my new automatic car starter put on my car today!!! I never thought it much of an issue to take the three minutes to start my car in the morning, but boy was I wrong. Right now it is 3 degrees.

Yep. I need a starter.

Have a good warm day!!!!

yesterdays fun

2009-01-20T13:15:00.002-05:00

So, yesterday started out like any other...

We woke up and did some running around...

Jason plays in a pool league on Mondays so we were sure to be home by 5.

Shortly after we got home, I threw the meat for beef stew on the stove and just added the water to simmer for a few hours .....

Then our power went out!

At first, I thought it was because we had a few space heaters running, plus the regular heat, along with the microwave and stove... after Jason messed with the fuse box and nothing happened, we called a few neighbors ... the WHOLE town of Wellington has NO power! Are you serious? It is like 15 degrees out.

For two days, I have been fighting off a terrible migrane (not to well I might add) so Jason takes off to a friends house to charge his phone since he lost his truck charger.. me and the girls head to my moms. (My mom and J hate each other) I got sick a few times at my moms, FINALLY at 9pm Jason called to let me know the power was on. I waited a bit for my house to warm up since before I left it was already 65. (Burr)

I threw the girls in bed. I passed out. And that was my night. Not too fun! lol At least we are above zero degrees today!!!

you should be jealous!!

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Look at these darling clips I won today from the awesome Kate over at Buzy Bee!!!

Kate's blog is so fun, real, and chocked full of her awesome creations!!!

Go check her out and say hi!!!

My balcony view

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My bedroom has a balcony

This is the sight I see

The longest one which is not in view was 3 1/2 feet long (!) Very fat too!

I am over winter.

When is summer coming?

PS. Please don't pay attention to my neighbors two toned home, they are in the process of painting everything the sage color!

Just testing my new siggy!

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Other ways to see me

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myspace

facebook

2009 Goals

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Now that the craziness of the Holidays are over along with the half ass resolutions that everyone typically makes, I finally sat down and began to write out my goals for the new year:

1. Play more with the girls. This is so important because too often I am telling them to go play in the playroom or their bedrooms so I can clean. Then once the cleaning is all done, I am too tired to play with them. They go to bed and I feel guilty for the rest of the night.

2. Start a date night with Jason at least once a month. This is also important because we can't have alone time at home with the girls as other parents know! lol Even if we just want to sit down and talk or what not.

3. I am going to set up a budget and actually stick to it!!! Thats the hardest part for me. I know where our money is, I know how much money we have, but for the life of me, I have not been able to NOT shop!!! This year, I will only buy my extra's (or his extra's for that matter) unless it is with in the budget now!

4. Start going to church. It would be incredible for all of us, expecially the girls to have a relationship with the Lord.

5. Continue to work on being a better person.

6. Wii Fit 3-5x a week, every week again. When we first bought the thing a year ago, I did it all the time, then our drama started and it slipped away.

7. Really focus on making an Etsy shop. I really would like to do this, but I am not going to initiate anything until after we move in a few months.

Ok, thats what I have worked out so far... I know as life changes occur and the year goes on, things will be added or altered.

I like goals so much more than resolutions. I actually stick to goals. I have to-do lists all over. I keep a note book with running to-do lists that I take every where and yep, you guessed it, my goals list is in my notebook!!!! =]

Lunch Date Blouse giveaway

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Lunch date Blouse giveaway over at Grosgrain!!!!

Mother of the Year

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I was awarded The Mother of the Year award thanks to the awesome Stephanie over at More Than a Mommy! She is such a sweetheart and has two of the cutest girls you could ever see!!!! =]

Ok, there are soooo many wonderful moms out there... I am just going to pick the first 5 that come to mind, if I don't pick you, please don't think I think your not an awesome mommy!

1. Julie at Joy's Hope. Wow. Talk about awesome, inspiring, talented, and with a sense of humor! I love following her blog!

2. Jaime at Baubles and Bits. Ok, this is one seriously talented mom!!! She has the cutest kids and super crafty!!

3. Sherry at If I could set my Soul Free. Talk about busy. This incredibly crafty mom has 8 kids and 7 grandkids!!!! Not only does she have the time to devote to each and everyone of them, she is also involved in many swaps!!!

4.Shelly at My Lily Eden. Cute kid, check. Super duper crafting talent, check. I love following her blog, always something new and fun!!

5. Sarah at My Pussycat Diary. Ok, this girl and I go wayyy back! But thats not the only reason why she is on this list. Sarah has endured a lot as a single momma of two of the cutest kids you can have along with a strong sense of the Lord ~ truely an inspiration!!!

would you rather?

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Tena over at the wonderful MomDot blog posted these "Would you rather..." questions today and I thought it would be fun to play! (I will put my answers in CAPS at the end)

*read the book or see the movie? BOTH. HONESTLY, I LIKE TO SEE THE MOVIE BEFORE I READ THE BOOK.

*get liposuction or a boob job? BOTH!!!!! OK, REALLY IN NEED OF A BOOB JOB, BUT I WOULD LIKE TO GET A LITTLE ON MY HIPS AND THIGHS TAKEN OUT!

*drive a SUV or a Mini Van? SUV ALL THE WAY!

*Eat a cup of mayonnaise or a cup of horseradish? UM, I WOULD SAY MAYO.

*vote for an honest but stupid politician or a liar with tremendous savvy? HONEST

*walk in circles through a revolving door 1000 times or hang upside down in an elevator for three hours? WALK IN CIRCLES. I GET SO LIGHTHEADED IF I AM UPSIDE DOWN!

*clean up after all the animals at the zoo or clean up at a slaughterhouse? ZOO DEFINITALLY!

*give up veggies or fruit? FRUIT! I EAT A LOT MORE VEGGIES TO BEGIN WITH.

*rewind to the days before you had kids or fast forward to the day you have grandbabies? OHH THAT IS SO HARD. I LOVED MY LIFE BEFORE MY GIRLS, BUT I TRUELY ENJOY AND LOVE MY LIFE WITH MY GIRLS AND I KNOW HAVING GRANDBABIES WOULD BE AN AWESOME EXPERIENCE... BUT IF I FAST FORWARDED MY LIFE TO THAT POINT, I WOULD MISS OUT ON THE GIRLS GROWING UP... IF I REWINDED I WOULD MISS MY GIRLS COMPLETELY.. OK, I WOULD SAY REWIND AND JUST DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN! =] AS LONG AS I GET MY SAME GIRLS AND THE SAME LIFE EXPERIENCES!!!

*learn from past mistakes or try again in hopes for better results? ALWAYS LEARN FROM YOUR PAST. ALWAYS CHANGE. NEVER STAY IN ONE PLACE. ALWAYS GROW AS A PERSON.

Hello

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Wow, it sure has been a while since I have blogged. There hasn't been anything life changing or even exciting going on here, I guess that is why I have not felt complelled to blog. Chloe has been adjusting to going back to school, very happily I might add! Me on the other hand, oh it is killling me to wake up early again! I love that Chloe can wake up when ever and go down stairs, get her drink and some cereal or a snack! Oh well. She is very happy to be back in ballet. Over the holidays, she missed two sessions. Her class is every Thursday and just so happened that Christmas and New Years fell on Thursday.

Yesterday Chloe brought home papers for her to sign up for soccer. I don't know what it is, but Chloe has wanted to play soccer for 2 years now... so she will get to this year! I am still waiting to hear about her brownies though. I sent in the registration like a month ago!

I sewed Chloe a pinafore! It came out really cute on my second try! Oh the first one was just all off!! I cut it to short ( ok no problem, it can be for Kylie!)... I finally had it all done and called for Kylie to try it on... she started to scream! The one armpit was up too high. She was freaking out so I just grabbed the scissors and cut it off. I was hoping to at least salvage it... So later that day I remade one for Chloe. Since the first one was a bust, I opted to just make it one sided. (The orginal one was double sided). It actually came out great! Now I am on the hunt for tons of cute fabrics so I can sew up some stuff for the girls!!! ( I will post a pic of the pinnie later today or tomorrow!)

Ohio has like a foot of snow right now. I can not stand it! I have never been for winter weather. I figured if I wanted snow I would go to the mountains, ski, come home to pretty green grass! So we are kind of house bound today........ Do you know anything fun me and the girls can do?!

I have been giving this serious thought. Hum, what am I thinking about you ask? I am really thinking about taking me and the girls to church. Neither of my girls have been to church. I haven't been for a service in a long time. Chloe knows about Jesus and God. (mostly thru my speaking of Faith). But I feel it would be wonderful for them. It would be wonderful for me. Right after we lost Faith, Jason and I were set to go to a local church, but every Sunday Jason would be first out with work or already have gotten called. Me, needing him so much back then, would not go unless he was with me. Now, I am really feeling the pull for my girls and myself to go.

Things have just been really dull and boring here. I have been slowly gutting my house to prepare for our move soon. I have rekindled a relationship with my dad. We haven't talked in 3 years. But we are working thru what we fought about. It feels good to have him back in my life, and eventually my girls lives.

Have a great weekend! =]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!

**AND TO MY HUBBY HAPPY ANNIVERSARY**

WE WENT TO DINNER SANS KIDS

THEN OFF TO HIS UNCLES BAR....

PLAYED POOL, DARTS, ATE MORE, DRANK MORE,

MET HIS SUPERIORS(!), JUST HAD FUN...

CHLOE WAS WITH MY MOM

KYLIE WAS WITH HIS PARENTS

ok, I AM NOT A BIG RESOLUTION MAKER... I ALWAYS BREAK THEM!

I AM CONTINUING MY GOAL FROM LAST YEAR: BE A BETTER PERSON.

I LOVE TO SAVE STUFF FOR NOT KNOWING WHEN I MIGHT NEED IT,

BUT MY SECOND "RESOLUTION" WOULD BE TO STOP "HOARDING"..

OK, THAT DOES SOUND BAD, BUT AT LEAST IN MY DEFENSE, WITH MY OCD

I HAVE EVERYTHING STORED NEATLY IN BOXES, BINS, BAGS, ALL LABLED AND SUCH!

I JUST DONT WANT TO HAVE SO MUCH IN MY HOME!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! HERES HOPING 2009 IS A HELL OF A LOT BETTER THAN 2008

:: The Wedding, December 27, 2008 ::

2008-12-28T22:01:00.003-05:00

Nicole, Myself, Jessica, Nadia **Luis' daughter**, Luis, RJ, Angelo ** Luis' brother**

The women of the bridal party, I was the matron of honor!

The men. RJ was the bestman.

Ok, the morning of the wedding, it HIT me. My neice is getting married. The girl that I used to change her diapers. The girl that would clean my room for a quarter **ohh, I was such a mean aunt when she was little! lol** The girl that I would give dating tips to when I was in highschool. Alright, I won't bore you with all of that. It is just really crazy. I am only 7 years older than her. She has always been my girl. I have always looked out for her and made sure she was ok and that I could help her with anything I could. I still will. I am so lucky and so blessed that I was able to be a younger aunt. I got to be the "cool aunt" (haha) but in all seriousness, I got to be her ear to listen to, her shoulder to cry on... (Oh, before people reading this start to think my sister had a kid young, nope, our mom was married to her dad. Divorced. Met my father and here I came along when my sis was 14 years old!!! So, she was 21 when Jess was born. A perfectly fine age)

Anywho, on to the wedding and the reception...

It was a blast!!!! First off, Ohio had GORGEOUS weather!! No snow on the ground, 60 something degree weather, a slight to strong wind, no rain... pretty nice!! Jessica and Luis were married at my Grandmothers church. It was gorgeous! Red pointsettas all around. Cream and gold shimmery ribbon on the Christmas trees....that was just a few of the churches decorations! Debbie added Jessica's in also.... It was a lovely ceremony! Both Jess and Luis are Catholic. My, I forgot how long a Catholic wedding can be, but it was so lovely. I fought my tears all day long! While I was standing next to Jess, I almost bust out, but I did good holding tight.....

The reception rocked!!!! OHH how I love me some jello shots! At one point I had a plate stacked full of them. **the girls were at home, with my inlaws** I danced my booty off. I danced to everything they had on. A jello shot in each hand the whole time. I did the "line" dances, hiphop, Latino, ect... I can not say it enough. It was such a good time. My niece is just gorgeous. She made a perfect winter bride!!! I am so happy for her, Luis, and Nadia. The will truely be a very happy family!

Christmas is over....

2008-12-26T19:18:00.002-05:00

So, Christmas was great for the girls!!!! I love my gifts from J!! He loved what I got him!!! I am STILL opening boxes!!!! It is now 7:20 pm on the 26th and I am still busy opening toys and finding space for them!!! OHH what am I to do??!!

I have a lot of pictures to upload, but I have yet to have the time... I will have even more pictures after my neice's wedding tomorrow! Hopefully this week I will be able to get those uploaded!!! =]

Well, I have so much to do and so little time!!! Have a great weekend!!!

:: Merry Christmas ::

2008-12-24T10:47:00.003-05:00

I truely wish everyone has a very merry Christmas and a wonderful New Year!!!!

I am very excited this year for both holidays! Christmas will be so magical with the girls. They seriously got everything they asked for!!! I love that!!!

New Years Eve is our annv. This year it feels so much more special with all of the bs we have been thru these past 2 months. Even a few days ago while he and I were out to eat (without the demons, er the girls lol) it felt so nice, not forced, not like it was what we should do, but rather what we wanted to do. =]

Anywho, I promise I will actually have pictures after Christmas!!! I have been so busy I havent even uploaded Kylie's birthday pics!!! haha

:: Happy Birthday Faith ::

2008-12-22T09:09:00.002-05:00

WARNING,LONG AND MIGHT BE GRAPHIC, PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION......

Wow. Today 3 years ago, my angel in Heaven was born.

There is so much I don't remember. Maybe I blocked it out, maybe I didn't care to know the full details at the time. I honestly don't know.

Initially I thought I was having constipation. (With Chloe I never had labor pains)... The next day when I did have a BM and I was still in pain, I decided to go to the hospital.... Right when I walked into Labor and Delivery to check in, I started to bleed.

They couldn't do an exam due to my bag of water showing already.

Are you SERIOUS!!!!! I am only 23 1/2 weeks!!!!!! There should be NO problems!

They rushed me to a level 3 neonatal hospital over 45 minutes away. I remember the guy in the back with me was cute. I remember him holding my hand and praying with me. I remember having to have my head lay much farther down than my pelvis. I remember being worried that Jason would make it there in time and safely.

Before I left for the other hospital, I had the doctor call Jason. He was just stepping on the train in Bellevue, over 45 minutes away! And the new hospital was 45 minutes away in the other direction!

I made it to Fairview safely. I had everyone waiting for me.

I got into my room. The doctors and nurses rushed to switch my lines and oxygen to their standard. I was finally stable.

Everyone took off to grab a drink and make calls....

Wrong. The second everyone left it hit me harder than I could ever describe.

I was rushed off to the OR. Jason was getting scubbed in.

I knew that Faith was transverse (she was laying sideways).

Again, I don't remember much. I remember laying on the OR table telling them to hurry, please. Asking where is Jason. Asking where the anathesiologist is. Begging them to hurry......

Next thing I know, I wake up in my hospital room, very sore but not in that horrible pain I was feeling. I guess I was in so much pain that they couldn't wait any longer for me to recieve my spinal. They put me under for my C-section. Jason was sitting right next to my bed when I woke up. He was the only person I wanted to see.

Immediatly I wanted to start walking so I could go to the NICU and see Faith. I was finally allowed to start walking.... I remember taking exactly 3 steps away from the bed and blood just rushed down my leg. I remember being scared of that. Right when I was sat down to have the nurse clean me up, the NICU doctor came in......

Oh no. They knew we were on our way down to see her. This can't be good......

I don't know what he said. All I know is that taking her off life support was the best idea.... (side note, I wish I would of waited a few days to see if there was any change in her. But I was so niave and scared, I mean seriously, who was I to go against a specialist??!!)

I was put in a wheelchair and off we went to see our daughter. For the day I have only seen poorly taken polaroids of her.

We got to the NICU. We scrubbed our hands so feverishly.

I had the biggest case of butterflies knowing that I am on my way to see my baby. A baby that I can not hold. A baby that is a quartrer of the size of normal babies..... While Jason and I were looking at her and holding her hand, the doctor told us again that taking her off life support would be the best in her situation....

We went into "that room" while the nurses removed her tubes and lines......

They brought her in for us to hold. Alone. Free of wires, tubes, lines..... Jason and I sat there with our baby for hours hugging her, kissing her, telling her how much we love her. Telling her how much her big sissy Chloe loves her. How special she is and how much she means to us.....

While Jason was holding her I remember laughing at her little tongue slidding in and out. Almost like she was playing a game. I remember the smell of her. She had dark hair like me (and now Kylie). She was so small. Just over a pound. I honestly can't remember the exact amount. Weight either. I know she was born at 9:46pm on December 22. She passed away in the 9-11 o'clock hour in the A.M. on the 23rd. I would have to check her death certificate to be sure.

Jason was holding her when she took her last breath. I was holding Jason....Before she did pass, we let our moms and my sister hold her. That was it. The only people we wanted to see her.

Afterwards, I went to my room. Jason went to Wellington to make arrangements.

I came home on December 24th, around 11pm.

Christmas morning my beautiful princess Chloe woke up to see mommy sleeping on the couch and was so excited to see me. She was so confused being she was only 2 1/2. I couldn't hold her. I sadly didn't want to be with her too much. But I was so happy to see her. We started Christmas off. She has such a good Christmas. She got so many gifts she asked for!!

Then Jason asked me if I knew where my present was... I laughed that I think he forgot it! We sat on the couch. He got down on one knee and proposed to me. (!)

I guess he had been planning it all for months! We just bought our house and we were finishing up the remodeling before we moved in....he had the date set (December 31st at 2pm).... he had the town hall set up.... the mayor was ready to be there.... he had all of our friends and family invited.... all I had to do was say yes and get a dress..... In light of our situation, he said I could cancel if I wanted to.. But I knew I needed to do it. Its what I wanted from the day I met him. I have always loved Jason. I knew I needed our love to get us thru our greiving....

So, from Christmas morning till our wedding, my week was as follows:

25th, Christmas
27th, dress shop
29th, Faith's funeral
30th, finsh wedding details
31st, Wedding day.

It was a crazy week. The most emotional week I have ever experienced. I never want to experience what I did again. It took a long time for Faith's death certificate to come through. The final cause of her death was placental abruption.... which led to bleeding on her brain and more issues that I can not remember.

I know Faith is where she belongs. She is with our Lord in Heaven. She is healthy. She is not in pain. She is still with us in our hearts and for Jason and me in memories and pictures.

Today and tomorrow are the hardest days for me and Jason. I miss her so much. Almost every day when I drop Chloe off at school, I run by the cemetary to say hi to her. I want her to know how much I love her and how much I miss her. When Chloe is with me, she will go to Faith's headstone with me. She will say "hi baby sissy. I love you".... Chloe has asked to see pictures of Faith. I just can not do it yet. I can barely look at them when I am alone. I don't want to put that burden on my 5 year old.

Please hug your children! Love them so hard every day!

:: Baubles & Bits giveaway ::

2008-12-20T00:23:00.002-05:00

OK, the incredibly talented Jaime from Baubles and Bits is having an extraordinary giveaway!!! =]

If you have a little girl or you know a little girl, you need to head on over to her page and take a peek and enter this give away!!!

Jaime is being super nice by letting you enter in 3 different ways!!!!

OK, stop reading this and head on over there!!!! =]

Have a great Saturday!!! =]

:: Sauerkraut Balls ::

2008-12-16T21:22:00.002-05:00

Since my last post, I have had a few people ask what they were.... well, let me tell you, if you like sauerkraut, you will LOVE these!!!!!

I haven't had the chance to make any as of yet, so I can not post a picture of what they look like. (sorry)

Ingredients:
3oz cream cheese
1 tsp instant minced onion (knorrs/lipton/ect)
16+ oz can sauerkraut (drained)
1 can corned beef (12oz or less)

Roll in:
1/4 c bread crumbs
evaporated milk
flour

Directions:
* In a food processor, put the minced onion and sauerkraut.
* Blend till the onion is not so big and the sauerkraut is not so long
* Mix all ingredients together
* Shape into 1" round balls
* Roll in flour
* Roll in evaporated milk
* Roll in bread crumbs
* Freeze for 2 or so hours
* Deep fry 1-3 minutes

* They can be frozen after frying
* Make sure to process the sauerkraut. One year I took the "easy" way out and did not do that step and my balls came out like explosions!!! lol
* Like everything else, its easier to do with an assembly line. Make a bunch of balls. Roll "x" amount. Fry "x" amount.... and so on.
* I love sauerkraut so I tend to add a bit more than what I should.

If you do give this ago, please let me know what you think of them!!!! My whole family goes thru about a dozen batches during December!!! =]

:: I am a bad blogger ::

2008-12-15T21:43:00.003-05:00

There. I said it. I was doing good for a while. Now, well now it just seems that I am either swamped with the girls, cleaning, Christmas stuff, or I am just way too tired!!! Here it is 13 days after Kylies birthday and I have yet to add pictures. Ugh. To be honest, I have yet to even upload them to my computer! Ha. Maybe this weekend before all the crazy begins!!!

Chloe and I have been busy busting out cookies!!! All of the cutouts are done. Now we have peanut butter blossoms, russian teacakes, and I NEED saurkraut balls!!!! Oh how I could eat those every day! There have seriously been many days during summer that I make those! Thank goodness Jason hates saurkraut!!!! =]

So, last year for Chloe's preschool teachers, we went easy and just did chocolate covered pretzel sticks for a Christmas gift..... any ideas (homemade or store bought) that would be good to give her kindergarten teacher??!! This year I am drawing a blank!!!

I got a special privilage to be asked to be the matron of honor for my neices wedding on the 27th!!!! I am sooooo excited!! Ok, to clarify, people know that I am only 26.... how on earth can I have a neice old enough to get married you might be asking. My mom was married before she married my father. My sister is 41 years old (and my neice is 19)... So I was a super young aunt. But that was ok. I was the COOL aunt! I remember corrupting Jess so badly when I was a teenager! I would tell her "you never ever date a guy that has a shitty car" and so on! She did good listening to me!! lol Now she is marrying an Army man!!! =] Her and I are greatly alike in our weddings. I was married on New Years Eve. Her wedding is the 27th. Both of our wedding colors are/were red. We picked out the same cake cutter set! Ok, the list is mundane and can go on forever! But I am super excited to be her Matron of Honor! I will have pictures up for sure after the wedding!!!! =]

While looking thru a few of my favorite blogs, I found one more thing I have to add to my crafty to do list for Christmas thanks to Kate at the Buzy Bee! Both of our girls are getting easy bake ovens and I just need to do this for Chloe!!! =] So cute!!!!

Well, I think that has caught you up for now.... all the presents are wrapped and hidding in the basement... well, all but the presents I have yet to buy for Jason because I have no idea what to get him this year!!! hahaha.

:: a giveaway ::

2008-12-15T16:54:00.001-05:00

Hey all!

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Mention my name in your comment 1and if you win, I can win a little something too!!!! =]

What are you waiting for... go now!!!! =]

:: too many toys!::

2008-12-08T15:52:00.001-05:00

Good afternoon!!! Ok, this has been hell week here in my house! Tuesday, on K's bday, she threw up. Ok, not too bad. It was only once, although, she was so sweet to do it all over me! yuck! Chloe threw up in school! (poor pumpkin!) and kept it going. all. day. long. on Friday. So, Friday night, I was blessed with the bug. Woke up Saturday, feeling better but still weak. Finished up all the little odds and ends for the party. OHH, yes, about an hour or two before the party began, I develop a rash. Which proceded to get worse and spread during the evening. (yea me!) After everyone is gone and J and I are sitting there watching TV, it hit him. All. night. long. And continued onto early this morning. Hopefully we are just getting it out of the way before Christmas!

So, two days after my sweeties party, I am finally getting the house back in order and going thru toys and pitching old ones! I do have pictures to post, but first I have to upload them to the computer!!! Maybe tonight?

I have been busy today cleaning, organizing, and making phone calls. J and I are planning on moving out of Wellington really soon! Probably looking around next month. So I have been calling all sorts of places to find out what they offer. I think I found the place that I would like to live in for a while. We will find out Wed. when we go thru it if I like it.

Well, thats about it for now. I have a ton of cleaning to do and C wants to do some crafts with me tonight!

:: CATCH UP ::

2008-12-01T15:46:00.002-05:00

HI ALL!!!! SORRY ITS BEEN FOREVER IN A DAY SINCE I REALLY BLOGGED, BUT AS ALWAYS LIFE IS BUSY! JASON AND I HAVE BEEN BUSY SHOPPING OUR BUTTS OFF, WHICH HAS PAID OFF BECAUSE ALL OF THE GIRLS PRESENTS ARE ALREADY BOUGHT AND MOST ARE WRAPPED ALL READY!!!!! (( SOOOO EXCITED FOR THAT!!!))

JASON IS STILL DOING GREAT WITH NOT DRINKING!!!!! I AM DOING PRETTY GOOD WITH NOT SMOKING!!!! WE BOTH QUIT THE SAME DAY!

I RECIEVED MY SWAP BOX FROM MY AWESOME PARTNER GINA... (REMIND ME LATER TO UPDATE THIS WITH A LINK TO HER BLOG!!!! I AM ON A TIME SCHEDULE RIGHT NOW! LOL) SHE WAS AMAZING!!!!! I AM SENDING HER OUT HER BOX BY FRIDAY AND HOPE SHE LOVES IT!!!!!!

EVERYTHING IS JUST GREAT HERE... AS YOU READ A FEW POSTS BACK, KYLIE TURNS 2 TOMORROW!!!! HER PARTY IS THE 6TH, SO I HAVE BEEN BUSY PLANNING THAT AND GETTING ALL OF HER STUFF IN ORDER!!! =]

I HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GREAT DAY!!!!!!! =]

:: FIRST SET OF XMAS PICS ::

2008-12-01T15:44:00.002-05:00

:: Time flys ::

2008-12-01T15:38:00.002-05:00

My sweet little pumpkin Kylie will be 2 tomorrow!!!!!

It is so hard to believe that two years ago, I was rushing around to get all my Christmas shopping done, wrapping all the gifts, and preparing for her arrival!

Yet, my stinker butt decided to come 6 weeks before I expected her!

A mere 4 pounds and 16" long!

Now she is a whopping 25 pounds!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!!!!!

:: Happy Thanksgiving ::

2008-11-27T08:30:00.003-05:00

Good morning

Happy Thanksgiving!

((keeping it short and simple))

I am thankful for my girls

Jason

my health

my family

that we are lucky enough to have food

we are all together

jason is seeking help

LOVE

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!! I hope you find yourselves truely blessed!!!!!

:: this is TOO perfect ::

2008-11-24T13:50:00.001-05:00

You Are a Total Girlie Girl

You love looking good, and wooing men with your womanly ways.

You're so feminine, men are in awe of you ... which is a very good thing.

How Feminine Are You?

:: I am 5' 6" and this is pretty accurate ::

2008-11-24T13:44:00.001-05:00

What Your Height Says About You

You are a sensitive, emotional, and even shy person.

You are a romantic in the truest sense. You see people as you wish they were.

You tend to be a very perceptive person. You are good at getting to the heart of the matter.

You tend to be quite pensive and reflective. You think everything out carefully.

You are about as tall as the average German woman.

What Does Your Height Say About You?

:: nice to meet you::

2008-11-23T23:10:00.002-05:00

Hi to my new followers!!!! =] I am so happy that you like my blog and are interested to hear what events take place in my life!!!!! =]

I feel like a horrible blog friend though! I have been super busy with outside matters and the girls, that I have barely had a second to sit down and remember my own name! lol So, during this week, I will make it to everyones blog and say hi and read up on your lives!!!!!! =]

Please dont think I am ignoring you!!!! =]

With that being said, Jason and I (plus the girls) ran to Target and the mall.... last night and today! lol This is the first time it was pretty much just for us!!!! **We werent being selfish, my mom and sister decided to buy them a TON of clothes 2 weeks ago when they seen major sales and markdowns and Target, Kohls and Macy's!!!! =] So, I got my cake pan!!! ((the last one at that Target! wooo hhooo me!!!! )) plus a bunch of other stuff that I wont bore you with!!! Although, Jason and I were SOOOOOOOOO excited while walking thru the mall today!!! We found a store that carries our fave. brands of clothes!!!! =] Affliction / Sinful If you go back a few posts, the picture with me looking into the big mirror wearing a great black shirt is here. So, today I bought this!!! I love it! The pistols are black and clear crystals!!! Sooo awesome! So comfortable!!! Anywho, I am off to bed, but I just wanted to let everyone know I will be making it to their blogs this week!!!!! =] Have a great day!!!! =]

:: HELLO ::

2008-11-22T14:14:00.002-05:00

So, life has been good lately, even with 2 girls that love to fight with each other, I am just very happy with my life!!!! =] Right now as I type this, I am stuffing my face (ok, not literally, but I feel very much like it! lol) with that yummy thing called summer sausage!!! OHHHH how I look forward to summer sausage and smokey cheddar every late fall/ early winter!!!! Oh so yummy!!! Plus I am waiting for Kylie to wake up from her nap so Mommy can go shopping with NO KIDS!!! Wonderful hubby said he will keep Kylie since my mom offered to take Chloe for a few hours!!! Woo Hoo!!!! I dont think I will manage to leave Target now! Now, you might just be curious as to what this happy go lucky mommy is out to get..... wanna see? sure you do!! Just goooooo HERE!!!! =] If you can't tell, I am super excited about this! I am using this for Kylie's 2nd birthday party cake!!! I am going to make 2 of them! Plus a regular cupcake just for my stinker butt!!!!!! =]

K's party is coming up on the 6th of December... I feel terrible!!! I have slacked so badly on her party planning!!! Whereas Chloe's party was a Barbie Mermadia theme and OMGOSH for like 3 months ahead, I was making these HUGE paper flowers!!!! Ohhh darn, a few weeks ago I was cleaning up the pictures on my computer and decided I wont need the flower pictures any longer... ughhh. Why do I always do this!!?? OK, but they rocked! But my point was, I went all out for Chloe. Kylie deserves the same attention!!! lol I guess poor Kylie just gets less party attention b/c her birthday is right after good old Thanksgiving and before Christmas! lol OHHH well. So, I have to get busy making her a banner, getting the cupcake pan, finding polka dot decor.... ohh so much to do and sooooo little time!

Last night Jason and I went bowling with Boggs, his fiance, Josh and his gf Ericka... We are all friends and the boys are def. best friends.. it was a good time. Every one is being sooooo supportive of Jason not drinking!!! I really felt for him last night! Josh and Ericka drank (per Jason's orders, HE is the one with the problem. He doesnt want everyone else to change when it is him that needs the work!) I could tell, just being in a drinking situation was hard/different for him, but he did soooo good!!!! I am very proud of him!!!!!! I know we will get thru this together! =]

Well, I hope everyone has a warmer day than what it is here in Northern Ohio!!!! =]

:: a bug bit me ::

2008-11-20T18:54:00.003-05:00

OK, before I got the Faith tattoo, its been a WHOPPING 10 years since my last tattoo!!!

(( I was a wild teenager!!!! I got 2 professional tattoos plus 4 different piercings before I was 18))

Any who, the tattoo bug bit me again!!!!!! I can't wait until I get more!!!!!!

I will probably add a few stars to Faith and equal that out with stars on the other wrist!!!!

Eventually, I will have 3 butterflies on my stomach... A larger yellow one for Chloe, a medium sized pink butterfly for Kylie and a smaller teal butterfly for Faith... It will also have their names either below or above their butterfly.... OOH I cant wait.....

I would *LOVE* angel wings on my back, but I am not too sure if I will get those.... maybe one day?

I would also like a rosaries around my left ankle.... to cover up a very poorly done job of me putting my 15 year old crush's initials there! lol

And something to go on the top of my left wrist where as a 15 year old, I tattooed a Nike symbol... yes, you read that correctly! lol I was so wild and boy crazy! The boy I was "seeing" had a Nike 3 tattoo... kind of symbolizing him and his friends... (they all had it) so, since I was seeing him, I got it... Yea... I was one of those girls in high school. lol But what ever I get will be small since it is always visible... well, most of the time, I always wear a HUGE watch. OHHH how I love my big jewelry!! lol

OK, to sum up this post, I love tattoos. I want more. NOW!!!!!

BTW, I notice I havent posted with pictures in a long while... I will post some soon!!! =]

:: happy ::

2008-11-20T14:35:00.002-05:00

Sorry I have been a bad blogger lately!!!! So much going on, and for the first time in a loooonnnnggg time, its good stuff!!!!! Here's the count of whats happening:

1. Jason is seeking counseling for his depression and drinking!!!!!!! =]
2. He is moving back home!!!!!!
3. He is more loving and caring than he has been the past 4 years!!!
4. Finding the "perfect" fabric to make the girls matching Christmas dresses!
5. Put out my ever growing collection of Nutcrackers! At todays count, I have a mere 25! I need so much more!!!!! =]
6. Planning and preparing for Kylie's second birthday
7. Going thru all of my Christmas decor and deciding if I really want it
8. Getting the girls' pictures taken on either Nov. 24 or Dec. 1 thanks to my MIL!
9. Getting a automatic starter put on my car soon!!!!
10. Just being happy!!!! I know it always sounds so cheesy and corney, but I know in my heart Jason and I are ment to be together. Always and forever. I am just loving every second of laying in his arms and the 2 of us playing with the girls... Life is so good right now!

Well, I am off to clean before Kylie wakes from her nap.. I just wanted to touch in and let everyone know how things are here! =]

:: yucky ::

2008-11-16T14:13:00.002-05:00

Omgosh, it has been snowing here on and off all day.. ugh.

I am not a winter person! I would much rather bask in the glow of the sun bouncing off the ocean than play in weather twenty below zero!!! lol

With that being said, I do love to curl up, watch a good movie and look at the snow fall atop the sparkly Christmas lights! =]

Happy Sunday Everyone!!!!!

:: Faith ::

2008-11-15T16:42:00.003-05:00

I GOT MY FAITH TATTOO TODAY!!!!! =]

AND IT DIDNT EVEN HURT LIKE I THOUGHT IT WOULD!!! =]

I LOVE IT!!!!! =]

:: kids ::

2008-11-15T08:01:00.002-05:00

This morning as I was looking for the font for my Faith tattoo that I am getting in just a few hours (!) Chloe asked what I was getting tattoo'd.

Me: I am getting Faith for your baby sister that is in Heaven with God.

Chloe: Why arent you getting MY name?

Me: Oh, sweetie, I am going to get your name. I am going to have you, Kylie and Faith put around 3 butterflies on my stomach soon.

Chloe: Well, either way, I am older so you should have my name twice!

Me: Well, sweetie, I get to enjoy your company every day. I want to the the world know about your other baby sister.... and if it bothers you that much, mommy will get a second tattoo for you sometime. (Ok, I was fibbing here. I am def. getting the 3 butterflies on my stomach and such, but I am not really planning on getting each kids name done separate... But this way, Faith is close to me in my own way. She is always in my heart and mind, I just want the world to see her name and know that she is SPECIAL)

I swear, over night my 5 year old has turned 15! She has a serious crush on a boy, Jacob in her class! She even writes him love songs! Its sweet. Its harmless.... Oh my, I remember my first "peck kiss" was in kindergarten with a boy named Ryan Shoemaker.... humm, what ever became of him?? lol

:: a new pic of me ::

2008-11-14T19:24:00.004-05:00

15 pounds lighter than what I was a month ago.

I am embracing it again.

At this point, I either gain or I stay. I dont care. As long as I am physically healthy.

On a side note, please, please, please ignore the marks on the mirror! Haha. My girls LOVE AND HAVE TO kiss it and touch it all the time.. Its a huge mirror that takes up a whole wall in my dining room! So, I clean it about 5x a day... I just really like how my face looked in this pic so I decided to share it! =]

:: my 5 year old is really 15 ::

2008-11-14T10:34:00.002-05:00

My desk top picture on my computer is a picture of me and Jason kissing at our wedding...

This morning, Chloe was getting ready to watch the Popples on Youtube when she says:

"wow mom, your HOT!"

I was like, "uh, why do you say that sweetie?"

Chloe: When you married daddy, you were really hot!

Me: So I am not anymore?

Chloe: No, you are hotter!

hahaha....

But last night she did say something that worried me. A little history on me. I have fought anorexia since I was 13 years old. Once I had Chloe, I knew that having a girl I would have to strive very hard to portray a healthy body image no matter what I felt I saw in the mirror.

Anywho, I was checking my myspace when she was standing next to me and of course they had the double pictures showing the "before" and "after" of a certain weight loss pill... Chloe turns to me and said she likes "this one better".

Me: why do you like that one better?

Chloe: she is thinner. I dont like the fat one.

Me: Well, sweetie, some people might have a medical reason to be bigger. But that doesnt make them not a nice, fun, or happy person!

Chloe: well, I still like the thin one better....

Then she ran off to play.

Kind of disturbed me.

:: change is among us ::

2008-11-13T20:24:00.002-05:00

I have taken my blonde locks to a state of darker love. Its normal. Its typical. I change my hair so frequent.

Ok, mostly color changes. I hate cutting my hair. I always regret it. I have been growing it out for 2 years now so I am not giving that up yet...

I like it. I needed the change. It took Chloe by surprise! ((btw, sorry for the oh so very tired pic of me, I seen my Dr. yesterday and got a rx for antidepressants, and wow, I was groggy almost all day))

As for me and Jason.... still not sure... He did stop over today and get the number to our health insurance company to see who is in network for him to talk to.... maybe that is a start? There are soooo many things. I am really in a good mood right now so I am not going to talk about that. I just still pray for him. Pray he can rid himself of depression and alcoholism... Only time will tell.....

On other super great news for me: Saturday, I am going to get Faith tattoo'd on the inside of my right wrist.. I have wanted it since Faith was born and passed away... it just never happened. Well, now its my time.

:: I found my cats twin ::

2008-11-11T21:36:00.002-05:00

Ok, this is a silly little post, but I was browsing a few blogs this evening and came across Clever Chook's blog... I scrolled down on this post and what do I see?

A twin for my Starly Starfire!!!! =]

Exact same color.

The black and light color alternate around their mouths.

Starly just has a more "scrunched" face!

:: its official ::

2008-11-08T15:19:00.001-05:00

jason has moved out. i have been up since 430 this morning, and finally when i sent him the "you win text" i packed up all of his stuff. then i sat down and wrote a long letter to him. i hope he reads it. i hope he doesnt throw it away before even looking at it.... i also added a lot of pictures of him and i to show him how happy he was and still can be if he gets help for the depression and drinking.

:: so much ::

2008-11-08T07:20:00.003-05:00

I am not in the mood to "talk" right now.... I havent been in a while... Jason is moving out today... I know he is cheating on me with a little whore that is only 21..... He is throwing everything away.... I am keeping the girls away from him if he is cheating on me.. Plus his drinking is out of control anymore, granted he doesnt drink in front of the girls, unless we are at a party, which of course I have a few too, nothing outrageous.... The past 3 weekends, when he has gone out, he has not came home..... I am not a violent person... I am not a fighter... I have never been in a fight.. If my mother in law and or I see that whore, we will bash her head in...

I just dont understand.... I look into his eyes, I SEE love in there.... I see sooo much hurt, anger, confussion.... but I truely love that man enough to want to still work things out and save our marriage... I have thought long and hard about this, I would fight for us this hard even if my girls werent in the picture.... He is so depressed... He has such a drinking issue.... I doubt he will ever find help.... In that case, he wont see my girls... They deserve a good daddy... I will start to fill the story in as the days and weeks go by.... I hope that whore dies.... I even called her a few days ago when I found her phone number... I laid into her... Told her he is FUCKING MARRIED WITH KIDS STUPID WHORE. She basically didnt care..... He is making the biggest mistakes in his life..... After texting him numerous times this morning (it is now 7:30am, I have been up since 4:30 when I realized he wasnt home, again) I finally text him : you win. just know this sweetie, you WILL regret this. I just hope when you do it isnt too late to work on things. Just please remember how much I love you. please remember that i will always love you this much and this hard. even when i am 50, you are the man my heart will belong to..i love you so much jason."

I didnt cry upuntil I wrote that text message. I started to bawl my eyes out. I cant even believe that i gave in. I dont want to. but I know it is so unhealthy for me to continue to put myself thru this. I am bawling my eyes out as I type this. I so badly need him. I so sickenly, madly, unconditionally love him. I want things to work out. I want him as my husband. I want my family to stay together.....

I have been a SAHM since Chloe was born. I am so scared about what I am going to do.... It is so over whelming thinking that i have to hurry and get a job, get a sitter, figure out how I am going to do this... my poor girls... kylie is such a HUGE mommys girl. I can not seriously be out of her sight for more than 2 min before she is looking for me or calling out to me.... even when her nana had her for exactly 1 hour, all k could talk about was me! this is going to mess her up so badly.. my poor chloe... oh God how she adores her daddy. thats all she talks about. from the time he came into our lives, she has worshiped him.... we did discuss the girls at one point... he is going to take chloe on visitations and such bc that IS his daughter. he loves her so much, yet he doesnt see what this is going to do to her and K.

Please, everyone....please pray for Jason! Please pray that he willl leave that whore, please pray that he will stop drinking... please pray that he will see a therapist... please pray that my family can be saved before it is too late... please. I need so much help....

:: HAPPY HALLOWEEN ::

2008-10-31T17:02:00.002-04:00

Seriously, HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!

My absolute fave. holiday! I have been beeming with excitement all day long!!!!!

Ballet rocked last night!!!!

Chloe's school party was a blast ~ pictures will come later tonight or tomorrow!!!

My sis is on her way over to walk with me and the girls.... J is working.... the life of being a train engineers wife... oh well!

I have to run and get my butterflies ready, they are needing more glitter!!!! Because, seriously, what girl doesnt need a TON of glitter???!!!!!

Have a safe and fun time trick or treating!!!!!! =]

:: Hi ::

2008-10-30T15:49:00.002-04:00

Just a short one to say hi! Chloe has ballet tonight and the parents are allowed to stay and watch tonight!!! =] I am so excited! I actually stopped dancing ballet 3 years before Chloe was born! I have finished getting the butterflies ready for tomorrow! I made the tutus and antenae... cheated and bought the wings... but omgosh, everything pulls together sooooo well!!!! =] I will post pictures either tomorrow night or Saturday.....

Chloe's class is having a party tomorrow, I was lucky enough that my mother in law can watch Kylie so I can attend!!!! I love being a part of any and all parts of my girls lives!!! =]

Jason and I are getting along. We havent talked in a few days about what is going on with us, but we are getting along so I am happy! More on that when I figure that stuff out! lol

Well, I have to run, I have a ballerina to prepare and a house that needs toys picked up very badly!